#diagnostic hell

I first asked my GP if she could refer me to a mental health care provider to look into a possible SzPD diagnosis 2.5 years ago. I was then waitlisted for about a year. After my intake the team immediately decided to disregard my question as they believed they could detect a 'need for social contact' which according to them would imply I could not have SzPD. They thought the existing Autism diagnosis in combination with C-PTSD was more appropriate.

Although I did not agree, a part of me thought, 'maybe they are right, they are experts after all'. After completing my EMDR treatment sessions, my almost non-existent flashbacks, which would occur around once a month or so, did disappear. However, I only felt worse. A part of me hoped for a significant improvement. Instead, I was left disappointed and felt even more depressed and hopeless.

In the past three months we've been tackling a re-evaluation of a possible SzPD diagnosis. A more specialised clinical psychologist in the field of personality disorders looked into my file. He determined that where my psychologists saw a 'need for social contact', he could also interpret the result from a point of view where that wasn't the case.

This finally gave the go-ahead for an official diagnostic process for SzPD. I checked most boxes for the DSM-V classification and then completed a diagnostic interview (the SCID-5). The outcomes indicated Schizoid personality disorder. My directing practitioner then continued to look into the ASD diagnosis and confirmed that most likely, my SzPD had been misdiagnosed as Autism. It will be removed from my record. He also offered an apology in regards to how they wrongly handled the situation.

does anyone have any advice on how to bring up getting a wheelchair to parents? i feel stupid worrying so much about what they'll think since i'm 21 like. but i still live with them, and we're very reliant on each other. they know about my health stuff, but not every detail. i try to downplay everything, and when scary potential diagnoses are brought up i don't mention them to them.

they know i used a crutch all last college year, and that since april i've needed two crutches almost every time i leave the house. but i know that for how accepting and progressive they try to be, they still see a wheelchair as a point of no return.

i was putting off talking with them about a wheelchair until i had a proper diagnosis or a specialist or anything tbh. i do really worry about doctors' opinions if i source a wheelchair myself without consulting a professional (despite that not being a fucking option for me rn because of the state of the healthcare service in my county)

but i found a custom chair on ebay that is almost perfect. in my price range, good sizing, good make, good shipping, everything. i can't exactly get it shipped to our house secretly like. so i feel like time is much more pressing now. and i really want to have this conversation with them before term starts too.

tl;dr: i live with my parents and need to get myself a wheelchair. how do i bring this up to them? and how do i deal with future doctors opinions on self-sourcing my first chair? will it harm the likelihood of me being taken seriously by them, and is that avoidable?

Got a treatment re-evaluation tomorrow. My directing practitioner was pretty quick to discount and discredit my suspicions of having SzPD last year, and decided to diagnose me with C-PTSD instead.

Having experienced many traumatic events that really fucked me up, I conceded, and basically thought: "You know what, you're the professional, I do have traumas, maybe it is C-PTSD". He then proceeded to say "often we see the personality of a person with C-PTSD emerge after we have completed the trauma treatment", and I really hoped this was true...

A year has passed now. I have completed the EMDR treatments. My flashbacks have stopped...However, my flashbacks were never really a main symptom. I experienced them maybe 5% of the time, so any improvement that was gained with EMDR is extremely minimal. This is very disappointing to say the least. And overall I feel the same, if not worse...

One of my core wounds from childhood is of being dismissed, have my reality (thoughts and feelings) discredited, my words twisted and being fundamentally misunderstood. So when I realized this is exactly what my directing practitioner did by immediately throwing the SzPD option out of the window....I broke down quite severely.

I suppose it's very easy for someone with SzPD to just give up the search for help and understanding after that. I already felt like nobody could ever help me, and after a year and a half of being in treatment with only minimal results, that belief is only being reinforced.