there’s no job prospects where i am in ar and my dad said he can clear my old room i was in during the pandemic in ca. it’s been over two months and the only place that hired me just last week already let me go due to “over staffing”

it’s not ideal, it’s going to take a lot of planning and effort and funds i don’t have to get out there but there’s more opportunity and still no rent or big bills like it to weigh on my shoulders while starting over again for the third time in as many years

my entire body is sore and my hip is pretty much numb (on top of a dysplasia flare) and a lot of breaks are needed. it sucks, bc i essentially had to move an entire rooms worth of furniture out of my room (at my mom’s house) to the shed in the backyard before i could move my stuff in and scrubbed the walls and floor too cause cobwebs and dust, gross

not to mention the feeling of utter failure of having to move in with a parent (again) after only branching back out after the pandemic on my own a year and a half ago 😞

idk a lot of it is internal and fickle and i know it was the right move for the moment but yeah, just a lot of feelings and i have no internet yet to check my online status of finals / unemployment / potential jobs and lose myself in writing and sharing fics