#destinedtopacify

                                               meme.

       Judgement: Would your muse evergo back to their most recent ex-lover?

                              I’m glad someone sent methis one, because I keep thinking about it, especially post-massacre Finn. Theshort answer is no. I don’t think she could go back to him, all thingsconsidered. It was a whirlwind. It was impulsive. They slept together becausehe was the one that actually had faith in her from the start; he was the onethat she could care for, that cared for her, that she listened to, as a friend,as someone she could share burdens with. She slept with him because hewas scared, because she was scared, because all they had was each other, andthey were going to make the most of that, because she had feelings for him (because ninety seven out of ninety nine other people despised her for being privileged,and then Wells was killed— ) and he had feelings for her. ( ‘ You are not alone! ’ )

I believe their entire relationshipwas based upon trust and stability ( look at the common love triangletrope that I’m glad the show didn’t go toward; one relationship is stable,safe, just like how Clarke felt with Finn, and the other is reckless,impulsive, fuelled by passion, whichis why I was scared that Bellarke may become canon, especially after the firstfew episodes. So much tension. ). Clarketrusted Finn—no doubt. She trusted him with her life, she trusted him from thestart, and though it wavered duringUnity Day, ( ‘ You didn’t have totrust them. You just had to trust me. ’ ) due to wanting the best for her people, (sound familiar? Yeah. Everything she does. ) she thought she’d trust himtill the end.

But I can’t even begin to fathomhow she feels when she hears the cacophony of gunshot—the gunshot that doesn’tend until he empties his magazine into a group of penned in grounders. She doesn’t know who that is. She doesn’t knowthe Finn that seemed so against war,so against attacking the grounders, ( wanting to live amongstthem, alongside them in harmony )that seems to have ?? morphed into this strange, twisted and utterly grey sense of morality. From face-value,all he seemed to care about, after killingeighteen people, was that Clarke was back ( ‘ I found you. ’ ) and the woes of an unstable, emotionallydistressed, obsessive teenage boy’s love continue… He was afraid—he was petrified of losing her, and itjust??? all he managed to do was push her away even further.

On top of that, she has her ownissues to deal with—heck, she was buriedbeneath a pile of corpses, she had been hit and stabbed and insulted byAnya, and shot by Camp Jaha, she had relived her solitude from the Ark fromwithin Mount Weather ( she had been called crazy by one of the few people she thought she could trust. )and yet there were two things that she kept resorting to, kept in the forefrontof her mind—FINN AND BELLAMY. Finnis her ‘knight in shining armour’ ( when hell, if she needs a knight she’llbecome her own knight ), Finn is this person she can trust to be there, to be with her andsupport her—to challenge her when needs be, to make her think and stop with herreckless impulse, and yet—it was all just shattered with the massacre.

She sees it’s still Finn. She seeshe’s still there and maybe she thinks it was a moment of madness—when he givesher back her watch, she almost breaks her resolve, but she can’t. She can’tbear to stomach the fact that he killed eighteeninnocents. She keeps referring to it. She can’t keep it off her mind. Ithink if she were to go back to him, even after that, all she’d be able to see are the people he killed. She saw thecarnage. She saw what he did, and so??? so easily,too. It terrifies her, honestly, which is absolutely key to hercharacter development.

Finn is her morality. Finn is asymbol for her innocence, the constant equilibrium she determines between goodand bad, and the conscience she definitely needed. What happened when he died? She killed close to a thousand people. (250 in Tondc, 700+ in Mount Weather ) because she couldn’t think of another way. She didn’t have Finn there, ather side, to tell her to stop, to breathe, to rethink. Finn is a metaphor forwhat the ground does to them ( ‘You think our ways are harsh, but it is how we survive. ’ ) Thegrounders survive because they have learned to stop listening to their consciences, just as Clarke did with MountWeather, ( though I don’t think he ever quite left. After all, she washaunted by him—Clarke will always be haunted by the decisions she makes. )and it is Lexa that has catalysed it.

Right now? Clarke doesn’t deserveit. She’ll strike herself from contact, as she did in the finale, she’ll strikeherself from supplies, from any form of comfort or luxury, and she’ll head offby herself. She doesn’t need anyone, she doesn’t need Finn—Finn has been struckfrom her breast. Finn has nothing to do with her anymore, because she doesn’t think she’d deserve him,even if he still lived. Finn is hope. Finn is immaturity. (space-walking on the drop-ship. ‘ Hey,Wells. Looks like your dad floated me after all. ’ ) Finn iseverything that made her relax, that made her ease back into society, that madeher lead better, lead stronger, lead with little weakness, but he is what creptwithin her consciousness like necrosis and devoured it.

aLRIGHT

let’s talk about tohru honda and how despite everything she’s been through, she stays unconditionally kind and never says a bad word about anyone. She has lost both of her parents, LIVED IN A FREAKING TENT IN THE WOODS SO THAT SHE WOULDN’T HAVE TO BE A BURDEN TO HER FRIENDS, had a boy be cruel to her and call her ‘selfish’ after her mother died, had akito be cruel to her rEPEATEDLY. And yet, tohru remains so kind and determined just to make it through high school--because that’s what her mom wanted for her.

and let’s talk about the underlying guilt tohru feels for her mom’s death, yet no one had any idea until tohru was out of it from a fever and mumbled about it.

let’s talk about complex characters, like shigure. i love shigure, and he comes off as such a sweet, goofy guy, when in reality, shigure is objectively a bad person, who’s manipulating tohru for his own reasons. he even admits it himself.