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Oneshot from my Desiderium story (that has yet to come, yay), where your husband tends to you after one of your sparings with the Sugawara clan. It's just domestic fluff I owed you for all the trauma I've put you through.
You come back spattered and humming with leftover anger, Sugawara paper charms still sticking to your sleeve like wet leaves. You donβt knock. You push the door and the room inhales you β cedar, smoke, the faint iron of blood.
He doesnβt say βare you hurt?β
He looks you over once, from sandals to cheekbone, the way a butcher weighs a blade.
Then he clicks his tongue.
βIn.β
The tub is already filled somehow, your husband may have filled it for himself β you doubt β or he just knows you too well. Steam lifts in slow banners, he doesnβt bother with a brazier, he drags heat out of the air with a lazy curl of cursed energy until the water whispers.
You mutter, βIβm fine,β because thatβs your reflex.
βLiar,β he says, and the word is almost affectionate.
You let your kimono pool around your feet and your hakama goes next, bunched up, a problem for the future you.
You step in.
The first sting is just heat finding the cuts, you sit, muscles unwinding in increments as if someone is picking pins out of you. He kneels behind the tub, sleeves pushed to the elbow.
Four hands settle like a ritual β one on the rim to brace, one at the base of your throat to steady you, two to work. He peels a Sugawara talisman from your arm with a look of offended disgust and flicks it into the brazier, the paper shrivels to nothing.
βThey tag you with scraps,β he sneers. βLike fishmongers at the market.β
βI tagged them back,β you say, and he huffs a sound that means good.
His fingers comb through your hair, slow, patient strokes that find all the tangles battle never remembers. A claw pricks you once β sharp breath, a tiny flinch. He goes still as a hunting cat, then adjusts, trying again, slower.
βHold still, wife.β
He says it like a scold, but wife lands soft as silk on the back of your neck.
He works the grime from your shoulders, rubs warmth into the knots that set up camp along your spine. Every time he finds a bruise his mouth flattens.
βSloppy.β
He says it three times, each softer than the last, until itβs just breath. He takes your hand, turns it palm up, considers the split across your knuckles. He bends and kisses it, quick and unguarded, then immediately pretends he didnβt β thumb already pressing salve, a narrow strip of cloth drawn tight.
βThose needle curses,β you rasp and complain. βHe threw them like rain.β
βSugar-work,β he mutters. βPretty. Brittle.β
The pads of his fingers skim the welt along your ribs, and you feel his temper bank and glow.
βIf youβd waited half a breathββ
βI didnβt have half.β
βYou had me.β
He says it without heat, which makes it land heavier. He rinses you with a bowl, pouring careful arcs that avoid the gash over your collarbone. When he finally inspects that one he makes a low sound as if some small, unimportant thing inside him cracked.
βSugawara,β he says like a curse. βThey cut lines and call them sutras.β
βDidnβt take.β You tip your head against his arm. βI cut back.β
βI saw.β Thereβs pride there, hidden like a blade in the sleeve. βBut you dragged their filth home.β
He lifts his hand, and thin threads of cursed energy gather at his fingertips β clear as water, fine as spider silk.
βHold your breath.β
You do.
He draws the edges of the collarbone wound together with a neat, almost invisible line. It feels like cool fire, a tug from the inside that doesnβt hurt so much as rearrange.
He ties off the stitch only he can see, the knot finishing with a whisper against your skin.
βThere,β he says, almost satisfied. βTry not to split it proving a point.β
βWhich point?β
βThe one that always needs proving.β
He cups water and pours it down your shoulder, washing away residue you couldnβt have reached alone. He uses the edge of his sleeve to blot your temple, patient, exact.
Not because youβre fragile β he will never lie to himself like that β but because youβre his.
He oils your hair with a single palmful, works it through to the ends. He takes his time. The world can wait while he catalogs the inventory of you β the new bruise under your ribs, the scrape on your knee, the heat in your cheeks that is not fever.
When you shiver he warms the water again, easy as exhaling.
βTell me what he looked like,β he says.
βTall. Too many talismans. Smiled before he threw.β
βSmiled?β He snorts. βIβll take it off him next time.β
When your breath evens out and your hands stop buzzing, he brings you up out of the tub, drying you with slow, methodical passes as if you were something lacquered that his touch will either mar or perfect.
He wraps you in his robe β the heavy one β because βyour things are ruined.β
The robe swallows you whole. It smells like incense and danger and your husband.
He lifts you because you let him, not because you canβt walk. The futon is already laid. Heβs unrolled the winter quilts though it isnβt winter, arranged them with his usual precision β weight where you need weight, space where you need air.
He lowers you and the bedding remembers your shape.
βCold?β he asks.
βNot with you,β you say in a smug way, and he gives you a considering look as if measuring whether that counts as insolence or truth.
He decides itβs both.
He slides in behind you without ceremony, gathers you with all four arms in a hold that would be a trap in any other mouth. One forearm tucks under your head to make a better pillow, one crosses your waist and anchors you at the hip, one drapes heavy over your ribs to keep your breath deep, the last finds your wrist under the blanket and circles it, thumb finding your pulse.
He draws the heat out of himself and into the futon until the quilts go warm all the way through β steady, even warmth, like bathing in a hearth.
βToo hot?β he asks, though he already knows.
βPerfect.β you purr.
He grunts, which means good, and sets his chin on the crown of your head. Silence settles, the kind that has a nice, comfortable weight.
Outside, a night bird tries a call and thinks better of it.
You let him hold you the way he likes to hold prizes and boundaries. He is all corners and knives to the world β to you he is weight and wall and a steady metronome counting your life back to a slower tempo.
Each exhale brushes your ear. The hand at your wrist is not exactly gentle β heβs measuring your pulse like a ledger β but the thumb strokes once, twice, when it drops.
Accident, then not.
βNext time,β he says into your hair, βyou wait.β
You make a noise that is not agreement. He tightens the arm over your ribs, a warning wrapped in comfort.
βYou will wait,β he repeats, and thereβs no iron in it, only certainty. βI am patient with nothing. Except you.β
βYouβre not patient with me,β you murmur.
βMm.β The sound is amused. βThen call it obsession.β
βYou admit it?β
βI cultivate it.β He nuzzles the hinge of your jaw the way an animal might mark a favorite tree, entirely unbothered by dignity. βSleep.β
You donβt. Not yet. Your body remembers the rhythm of the fight and tries to dance again β twitches in your calves, the urge to sit up and re-run the exchange until you find the place you could have cut faster.
He feels it. His hand at your hip tightens, the weight of his arm like a commandment.
βNo,β he says softly. βEnough. Youβre home.β
The word settles deeper than the blankets. You breathe. He listens.
The Sugawara name drifts across your mind and you see the smirk again, the talismans, the needle curses that sang as they flew. Your heart picks up, his thumb presses your pulse, warning, then eases when you ease.
βIf he had touched your throat,β he says, voice almost asleep, βI would have opened him from ear to ear and hung his words out to dry.β
βPoet.β you say, and he huffs a laugh that is more vibration than sound.
βSleep,β he says again, and this time itβs the kind of order he gives himself when his temper wants to walk. He tucks the quilt under your knees with a deftness that says he practiced on corpses and learned to prefer the living.
He kisses the nape of your neck β the scar there, the one that always runs cold in rain β and you feel heat pool there as if he poured it out of his mouth. The quilt grows warmer. Your bones stop ringing.
After a while he speaks, so low you feel it more than hear it.
βWhen you were late, I counted to a hundred twice. Then I went looking.β A pause. βYou donβt make me do that again.β
βOr what?β you ask, because itβs your reflex to touch the blade and see how sharp it is.
βIβll drag you back,β he says, calm as weather. βAnd then Iβll kill you for making me worry.β
He kisses your shoulder where he stitched you.
βAfter.β
βHow reassuring.β
βMy wife does not require reassurance,β he says, a thread of pride through the grumble. βShe requires sleep.β
You make a quiet, involuntary sound. His hand at your wrist answers with a slow stroke of thumb.
βThere,β he murmurs, more to himself than to you. βThere you are.β
You slide at last, your thoughts losing their edges, the Sugawara smirk dissolving into the quiltβs warmth.
You float.
His weight doesnβt let you drift too far, each breath you take he takes with you, synced like you agreed beforehand. When your muscles finally accept truce, he shifts just enough to own your sleep completely β chin tucked closer to your crown, one hand migrating to your ankle under the covers to hold you at both ends, as if he were keeping a map from folding wrong.
βDonβt do that again,β he says into your hair, the words ride your last waking breath down.
Itβs not a warning.
Itβs a lullaby he doesnβt know how to sing any other way.
A year ago I made an animatic for the Desiderium comic. I'm still fond of it, so for Valentines day I polished it up and voila!
Its much easier to make animatics than it is to make comics, at least for me. So this is basically like. The entirety of the beginning prologue for Desiderium!
Oscar Piastri/Artturi Simila + Lando Norris/Oscar Piastri | pwp, something about allowing yourself to be soft and give in, just for a second, ONLY ONE BED | 4,2 k words | second part of the desiderium series
When Oscar walked back into the bedroom, the lights were already out, curtains closed, just the sound of the A/C and Arttu's soft snores filling the room. Deep down, Oscar was happy the Finn was already asleep; he probably wouldn't even have been able to look him in the eye without blushing furiously β giving himself away. For a moment, he argues with himself, before deciding to just go for it, yanking his shirt over his head, only his boxers clinging to his thighs as he slipped beneath the thin sheet, his back to Arttu.
It took Oscar a moment, still halfway between dreams and reality when he woke up again, heat clinging to his body, the hairs on his neck already damp with sweat and a muscular arm slung over his waist. Artturi's arm.
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