thinking a lot about how noctâs house is like, picture perfect depression house because hereâs the thing: its an absolute shitfest of a mess, a DISASTER, heâd be ashamed for ppl to see it but you know what rlly solidifies him as just being a super depressed teen who barely functioned? the fact that he tried. that when you look you can see the attempts at tidying up: the fact that the trash is mostly in bags, that things are piled onto tables and chairs where possible or that his clothes are in the basket in his room, that thereâs stacked books like he tried to pick things up and just couldnt, the fact his cupboardâs open in his bedroom and theres stacks of books near it like he started putting them away or how the trash can is full, etc etc. the fact that! there is genuine effort to try to clean up shown in small places and its those little moments of âi want to try, i dont want to live like thisâ vs. his complete dejection when he comes home to that mess every day that differs noct in myhead from just. messy spoilt teen to teen genuinely struggling lol.
