#depessing

We take the love we think we deserve. Maybe that’s why I give too much. Many that’s why I take none. Maybe that’s why. You took everything. I gave you everything.

I push everyone away, everyone too far.....maybe I should just kill myself. Maybe that would make everything easier.

I don’t want any other girl. I can’t have her and I don’t want anyone else. I met her before you broke me. I met her and fell in love with her before you broke me. Maybe it’s safer to be straight because than I can be objective and no feeling will attach. The feelings are too much. Feelings knowing you can’t have anything are easy. I want her in the most innocent way. I want her not because I can’t have her but because her happiness makes me happy. I don’t want to meet people because they’ll remind me of you. I don’t need a girlfriend because I don’t want another one. She would be an exception to this rule, but I can’t have her so it makes life easy. Being normal would make life easy. I wouldn’t care about fights because their would be no feelings. I wouldn’t care about any of it. Maybe it would be easy to be normal. Maybe it would be better. It would be better than this. Never to get your heart broken again.

Great reason to slip me a pill