#denmark 2014

(18th july) today's the last day in denmark, we're leaving tomorrow, and i went to new york city exactly three months ago today

(17th of july) today's thursday and we're leaving on friday and i'm not sure how to think about it; i have enjoyed being here but at the same time i want to get back home. what bugs me, i guess, is the fact that i'll have to wait another entire year to get back here. after all i have inner struggles like this one quite often and i should be used to it but i'm not. it's weird thinking the next time i'll be here will be in a year, if at all and i don't try to go to england again next summer, but i also think that once i'm home everything will feel right again like it always does in the end, but it's just that i've gotten used to this place here in the past two weeks.

(14th july) yesterday night our german team won the world cup in brasil and i'm extremely proud and happy that after 24 years we've finally got it again. i couldn't stay up to watch the last bit though because we're going to skargen today but that doesn't cease my excitement about this.

(july 13th) it's finally started raining today and it's cooled down at last; the hot temperatures were absolutely insufferable. i hope it's going to stay like this all summer, here and back home. rainy and grey weather comforts me in a way and i know it's strange to depend one's comfort and happiness on the weather and temperatures but i can't help it. i've also gotten more into reading as i'm reading harry potter like i do everytime i'm here in denmark in summer, i guess after a long time of not reading, it takes me a great deal of determination to begin reading again and actually keep it up. it's half-time now, we'll be leaving on saturday, and today's just sunday and somehow i don't want to leave, it's always like this. it takes me a bit of time to get used to being here and then we already leave again. i guess i still have a lot to learn about living in the moment and quitting my mind every once in a while to be fully present.

(july 12th, 2014) it's saturday and my parents just left for legoland with my sister and i decided to stay at the house this time since i went to legoland last year and the one before and therefore now know it well and it's rather for children and i felt like i could do with a day alone and off here but i'm sure i'll regret it later on, and i've spent a lot of yesterday night overthinking my decision as i always do with everything. that's a nasty habit i have and i always regret every choice immediately, it's silly i know and it causes me quite a bit of torment always doing that. i wish there was a way to get rid of it. but my mom assured me we'll come here again next year so i'll be given a shot again in my last summer holidays.