#demonkin thoughts

The kind of ethereal that is pure and looks at you like you are merely a previous creature and not.one of destruction.

The kind of ethereal that doesn't even deserve the word "real" in that description because she seems like she was anything but. She pressed her hand to your hair and didn't wince or take it back in fear.

She looked at you the same way with love the first time you met, and the same way when you destroyed everything she was. Behind the broken lines on her face was her face that made sure you kept it together in public because humans were disgusting and only looked at her like she was a piece of meat.

So like not Gunna lie but I feel my demonkintype is not that of your usual demon. Demons are essentially "fallen angels" if we look at religion, right? But I personally don't feel that was my past narrative. I personally don't believe in the monotheistic way of religion. In this life cycle, I rely heavily on spirits, higher beings from different planes of existence, and any other force that exists outside of me, and to think one being created the universe is weird to me.

With that in mind, when I think of my demonkintype, I think of sadness, sacrifice, animalistic tendencies, and raw power. I wouldn't say I have felt a phantom tail, or horns of that nature, but I have felt a connection with claws, long elven ears, and darker eyes. What I find fascinating is that there is a vast community of otherkin, specifically divinekin and such, and a lot stick to the Christian/Catholic narrative but couldn't there be an infinite number of different kinds of demons and angels and what not?

I am a thinker. I am curious. I am questioning. I just keep seeing numerous Gabriels, etc etc and I just dunno. Can two people be kin to the same figure? I dunno. I mean I know we discover our names of our past lives and what not but idk.

Sorry, just some morning food for thot.