i've been pondering my gender identity and it's possible that i'm not cisgender,

i really have no idea though :/

i relate a lot to some stuff demiboys talk about feeling, but i haven't had the "oh my God that's me" realization that i did when i learned about my mental disorder(s)

also, i'm not sure if i relate to demiboys and he/theys because my gender isn't entirely all man or if it's just that i feel so distant from society's perception of a man...

i'm gonna keep on pondering and maybe one day i'll have an answer.

if i do end up discovering myself more and identifying as a demiboy, i know it'll be something i keep closer than my gayness, which may be influencing how i don't fully identify with it