#deiridh

ㅤhe could remember a time when his first instinct would have been to shoot without question upon finding a stranger on his path. the bitter taste such a memory left on his tongue prompted his cautious question. " where y ' headed? " he calls, at the ready to deal with any danger the woman might possess.

@deiridh liked for a starter.

               there   isn’t   much   left   that   they   can   do.      it’s   a   waiting   game   now,   a   hope   that   hershel   will   pull   through.      he   was   a   tough   man,   carol   was   optimistic.      however   they   also   do   have   to   be   realistic,   and   prepare   themselves   for   the   worst.      it’s   why   she’s   been   running   through   everything   hershel   has   ever   taught   her,   on   the   chance   he   doesn’t   make   it   and   she’s   the   one   who   will   have   to   resume   medical   assistance.      what   worries   her   the   most   is   lori,   and   having   to   perform   a   c-section   on   her.      given   she   had   carl   by   c-section,   the   chances   are   she’ll   have   to   deliver   this   baby   the   same   way.      that’s   a   lot   of   pressure   for   someone   who   has   never   performed   any   type   of   surgery,   unlike   the   man   currently   laying   in   the   cot.      he’d   been   a   vet,   he   at   least   had   some   experience   in   the   field   of   medicine.

@deiridh — ❝ if you need someone to talk to, i'll listen. ❞

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒙𝒉𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒆-𝒅𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 — that had taken root inside of her soul and refused to let go. It felt like everything she was doing these days all went wrong and she couldn't seem to get anything to level out long enough for her to find her bearings. Lori didn't allow herself time to dwell on life before because it never did anyone any good but in moments like this when the quiet settled in and the overwhelming feelings seemed to overtake her, it was all that she could do.

She remembered her life with Rick before things got complicated, the house they shared, and the little moments that no longer seemed so insignificant these days like slow dancing in the kitchen or falling asleep watching movies on the couch. She remembered and mourned over the childhood that Carl should have had and the one she knew Judith would never know; school pick up and drop-offs, carefree moments at the park in town, and ice cream dates on the weekends.

Maggie's voice cut through the spiral happening inside of her head and jolted her back to the rigid reality of their circumstances. That sadness that was embedded into her must've shown on her face.

𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓𝐘 ?'𝐬 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐒 . / * @deiridh

                𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓  ,    𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐒  𝐊𝐍𝐄𝐖  𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓  𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓  ;      knows  that  if  it  was  given  to  the    WRONG  PERSON    it  was  a  liability  .    a  seedling  that  if  planted  would  render  even  the  strongest  of  warriors    WEAK    ,    a  type  of  openness  that  she  couldn’t  afford  .    the  woman’s  question  make  the  being  bristle  ,    something  angry  threatening  to  take  form  within  her  .    but  instead  she  looks  around  at  their  predicament  ,    notices  those  of  rotting  flesh  were  only  getting  closer  now  .    black  irises  ,    cool    &    harsh  ,    flicker  back  to  stranger  noting  how  full  her  cheeks  were  .    full  as  they  could  be  during  the  end  of  the  world  .    which  meant  maybe  she  was  being  cared  for  ,    a  place  of  sanctuary  .    so  eris  swallows  down  the  voice  ,    gravelling    &    hissing  ,    that  tells  her  to  avoid.    to  flee  .    instead  morphs  expression  into  a  practiced  one  ,    eyes  growing  bigger  ,    looking  like  she’s  opening  the  bullet  proof  wall  around  her  just  a  crack  .    just  enough  for  one  to  peek  inside  .  .  .        DON’T    LOOK  .                 ❛    yes  ,    ❜    vox  is  light  ,    airy  .    a  product  of  a  scheme  in  the  making  .    ❛    i  trust  you  .    ❜

by the time all had calmed and thor recalls everything that happened , he asks who it was that was screaming .  the answer he got hadn’t been what was expected . they told it was HIM who had been screaming . truthfully , thor can’t remember .  it all happened so fast . the land crumbling under his feet and he’s lucky he’s here . another hadn’t been so lucky . 

then again , it is all just a matter of time before they all bite it right ??  in this world it is more than likely going to be tomorrow rather than years down the line . if that’s true then why does it still hurt so bad when they lose people ?? ❝ i had him in my hands , maggie , ❞ his voice cracks under the weight of what he says . it screams of guilt and sadness .  ❝  and then he was just . . . gone . ❞  

quietly , @deiridh​ wraps her arms around the large survivor as if she can shield him from his pain and the world . both know that she cannot , but that won’t stop her from TRYING .  ❝  i’ve got you , ❞ she says simply and it is enough . enough to quiet this man so completely unsure of what they are doing in this world . all he knows is that she makes it worth it . 

[ HOLD ]  sender holding receiver close during an especially intense moment and whispering “i’ve got you.”

𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫   𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠   𝐬𝐡𝐞’𝐬   𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧   𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡   ,   thor   never   ceases   to   be   amazed   by   her   sheer   STRENGTH   .      everything   she’s   endured   and   lost   ,   no   one   would   ever   know   with   the   way   she   commands   a   room   or   how   she   holds   her   head   high   .   not   because   she   wants   to   but   because   she   HAS   to   .   or   so   she   thinks   ,   anyway   .      long   before   now   ,   thor   has   learned   not   to   challenge   her   .      though   ,   when   she’s   on   her   own   ghosts   haunt   her   or   the   demons   lurking   in   her   own   mind   .      it   is   a   sight   he   never   wants   to   see   but   even   the   strongest   fall   at   some   point   .      

   a   soft   ,   sad   .   smile   is   what   he   gives   her   as   he   enters   the   room   .      ❝      where’d   you   go   ??   ❞      its   metaphorical   in   a   way   ,   since   he   knows   she’s   been   right   here   the   whole   time   .      clearly   ,   the   wheels   in   her   mind   are   continuously   turning   and   being   far   too   unkind   to   someone   so   undeserving   of   it   .      

❝      honestly,      i’m   always   there.      in   my   head.      the   scars   on   my   body   might’ve   healed   but   i   never   really   walked   away   from   it.      ❞      @deiridh​​   says   without   looking   up   at   him   .   she’s   too   engrossed   in   the   way   her   thoughts   have   entangled   her   .   

❝      maggie   .   .   .   ❞   truthfully   ,   thor   doesn’t   really   know   what   to   say   .   what   can   he   say   because   nothing   will   ever   make   it   alright   or   even   close   to   better   .      quietly   ,   he   sits   next   to   her   and   lets   his   eyes   linger   on   her   for   a   moment   trying   to   figure   out   what   the   hell   is   going   on   in   there   .      ❝      what   do   you   need   from   me   ??      ❞

the   slight   sound   of   the   water   crashing   against   the   shore   can   be   heard   in   the   all   to   quiet   home   .   out   here   ,   it   is   still   so   incredibly   hard   to   believe   that   there   isn’t   much   danger   here   .      they   can   relax   and   BREATHE   .   sometimes   it   feels   a   little   surreal   but   he   has   lainey   back   and   he   has   his   little   family   .   all   of   it   makes   thor   not   want   to   leave   this   place   EVER   since   they   are   safe   in   this   little   bubble   .   nothing   can   harm   them   .   NOTHING   .   he   wouldn’t   let   it   .   maggie   must   sense   his   mind   wandering   since   she   tugs   him   down   to   place   a   kiss   on   his   cheek   urging   him   to   turn   towards   her   so   she   can   catch   his   lips   .      its   brief   but   he   smiles   in   return   .      ❝      i’m   gonna   need   another   one   of   those   ,   ❞   he   says   and   pulls   her   back   in   .   

Beth opens her eyes and its like a cold sweat had drenched her - dreams from before.. at Grady Memorial still haunted her. Despite it having been so long since then, she brushed her hair out of her face then laid her head back down on her pillow. It’d only been about four days since she’d found the others - somehow even then it couldn’t bring her comfort knowing she was with her family. ‘ it felt so real ‘ she whispered softly then let out a shakey breath, ‘ thought i was dead all over again ‘.@deiridh