#deerbi

so for a good while pawz ( @dogbi ) and armel ( @goatbi ) have been living somewhere (not gonna say the state, bc idk if theyre comfy!). they did it on a whim (/lh), bc yknow!! love. i get it.

but i predicted they did it too fast and sadly they did, and theyre unhappy there. all 3 of us are unhappy abt it for many reasons!!

so we decided, theyre gonna come back. but yknow..train trip pricey. it was looking to be $700, wouldnt be coming until LATE this year- and i was torn about it. but something kept telling me to keep searching for prices, keep looking. keep pushing.

and that, is why theyre now coming home MARCH 4TH!!!! i feel bad for being pushy on accident, but we 3 are unhappy being away like this i just couldnt sit!!

as much as i really despise being on the aroace plane, i guess its not all bad.

because while i do sadly have moments where i have NO idea if i can feel romantic love and sometimes even get repulsed..it lets up sometimes.

and this is one of those times. i just got out of the bath and keep thinking of becoming one of theirs. being their pup. their bup. their dazey. their dazey doo.

kissing them. holding them. cuddling them. making them gifts. buying them gifts. holding their hands in public. saying out loud i am in a 3 person relationship.

idk it just makes me giddy and smiley. idk how long these feelings are gonna last before i forget what romance is, but i hope i can re-remember it again.

idk. im just happy and lucky these 2 dont care tht im roseromantic. or feasexual.