#deeply rooted

Is a tree abused because it doesn’t move? No! It roots itself deep in the earth and then explodes up into the never-ending sky. With that growth, it provides for birds, squirrels, shade for people, and even food, shelter, and warmth, all while cleaning the air. The tree isn’t abused. The tree is a mighty gift.

DEAR GOD,

I know you’ve called me to a season of healing and being still. you’ve been calling me to this place for a very long time. God, I just didn’t know how to surrender. I didn’t know how to trust. I was afraid of releasing my control. I wanted things to be and go a certain way. but I got tired. I got anxious. I got exhausted. I got frustrated. I got sad. I got depressed. I got weary. I got mad. I got nothing. I got nothing nothing at all. I got nothing I was striving for, doing the most for. over extending myself for. all I got was nothing. and tiredness. and sadness. and it was all done in fear. not in love. that’s why I knew it all had to come down because it wasn’t a firm foundation. it was weak. it was egotistical. it was scared. it was in competition. it was insecure. it was broken. it wasn’t healthy. it wasn’t whole. it wasn’t complete. it wasn’t steady, nor was it firm. it wasn’t deeply rooted. and you’ve called me to this place. you’ve led me to this place. you’ve brought me to this place. I had to surrender to it all because I was tired of pretending it was all.. good. because it wasn’t all good. it was actually all bad. it was broken. and it needed fixing. but something broken cannot be fixed by anything but it’s manufacturer, by it’s creator. I release my control. into the hands of the one who is sovereign of it all and I trust you God to build me back up. I trust that you planting me in this dark place is for my good. it’s for my growth. I am the seed. and you’re tryna get me to be deeply rooted. deeply rooted in you. deeply rooted in my self. deeply rooted in wisdom. in healing. in self love. in compassion. in all things i’m called to be & to do. I am to just naturally flow into all that I am and my purpose will be illuminated. all I have to do is just be and I am in my purpose. I am in my calling. I don’t have to do. I just have to be. the same message i’ve been preaching to others for many years, I should have been preaching to myself. I have been running from this place. finally landed here to do the soul work that’s been calling me.

Read His word and surrender things that aren’t parallel, even if you don’t feel like it. Even if it doesn’t make complete sense. Confess your sins & apologize. Be willing, as that’s also an act of love.