#dedicaition

After I put the shelf-case where seemed appropriate. I walked around the living space a bit. Did some pirouettes on the linoleum in the kitchen section. Some port de bras type things and fondues/developes on the carpet.

I've decided it's my dream to someday, in the living room of my house, dance to this song with my wife and child.

I saw it so clear: two hearts flyin' in my mirror.

I realized that in all the encouraging words I said to her, none of it had anything to do with how she would look, or how her weight would change. I just told her it would be fun, and it would be empowering, and she'd feel great.

A woman I love wrote this, and I was thinking about it for a long time. Now, it's time to get philosophical up in this beezy.

First, who is the "someone"? In order to worry about fitting into someone's idea of beautiful, there must be a someone who has the given idea of beautiful. Who could this person be?

First, it could be: you! You are working to achieve what you find beautiful. That's pretty cool. I think even though it's something you want to achieve for yourself, there's still the important point to consider:

Do you consider the journey beautiful in itself? Do you feel better every time you do something to take a step forward? 

Steps back never count. Steps back are always in the past, and what you've already done, you can't take back, so you shouldn't worry about. Steps forward are what you plan for in the future! If steps forward are in your past, then you get to be proud of yourself. If you plan out steps back, then just do so knowingly. "I value going out and drinking and stuffing my face with friends more than the isolated effects of a single workout session.". (personally, I make this choice not enough. people are very important.)

If there are many steps back in your past and your future, then maybe you need to make sure that this is actually something you want to do?

But in general, every step should be something you treasure and look forward to. You should not have to go through an ugly journey to get to beauty. You should go out and do something beautiful to help you be beautiful. Because human beings are like mirrors.

Second, it could be: someone else! You are working to conform to the idea of beautiful of someone else. This is where we have interesting logic to explore.

There is a person who only cares for you if you fit their physical ideals. Fuck that shit.

There is a person who will love and care for you whether or not you fit any immovable criteria because well, that's how love works.

I guess the point is, when things are difficult, you have to look at your current path and your goals. It tends to be the case that those goals exist because you love someone and want that person to be happy. Typically that person is yourself! Sometimes making someone else happy is what makes you happy.