#dearyoutube

Dear @thatsthat24, 

I know I talked to you yesterday, but that was all about me. I know you’re not particularly keen on sharing your personal life, but it’s time to talk about you. 

I just watched your newest video. 

God, I really hope you’re okay. 

I’m so scared. 

Something changed. 

Maybe it was the background or the way that the bags under your eyes were evident more than ever, or maybe it was the way that you didn’t have that little light in your eyes when you do when you smile and laugh, or maybe it was the lack of goofiness that your videos usually entail. 

Maybe I’m wrong, and anyways, it isn’t my business. 

@katesattic and I will keep #cheerupthomas going. Even though you’ve told us that we’re not responsible for your happiness, I really want to make you happy. You’ve seemed so different lately. And I get it, people change, or maybe our perception of them does. Whatever it is, I’m really scared. 

I miss the old you. 

Is it weird to miss a person even when they’re on the screen in front of you, making you feel like the most special person in the world? 

I don’t know. 

God, I wish I could hug you. And tell you that things are going to get better. 

But I can’t. 

I wish i wish i wish i wish. 

Oh, Thomas. 

I... 

I just. 

I can’t write this down. 

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. 

I’ll leave you and your personal business alone. I’m sorry that we’re all butting in. 

I have to go. I have to stop. 

I’m sorry. 

I’m sorry. 

I’m sorry. 

I’m sorry. 

I know there’s no chance you could ever hate me, hate us. 

I’m sorry. 

I’m sorry. 

i’m sorry. 

I’m scared. 

People change, I just never thought you would. 

 I’m sorry. 

D-do you hate me? 

Probably. 

I’m sorry. 

I’m...