#dearest child

I’ve been thinking about you since I was 15. The love I’ll give you can’t be measured, I assure you that. I will spoil you as much as I could for you deserve every good thing in this world. I’ll make sure you’ll have your first drink at home and not with friends. If you want to drink with your friends then go, I will not neglect you for I know how it feels to hide something amazing that just happened. I know how it feels to not be able to share what just happened at that party, where you had an amazing time with people whom you’ll never forget. To pretend you are not drunk and act sober when all you want to do is lay in bed and sleep without taking your shoes off. I would gladly pick you up from your friends house or the club you are in, put you to bed and take care of you.

I will not judge you on how much you drink, as long as you’re not failing in class, have good company, learning new things, getting wiser in life, then I’m good with that. I trust you enough to drive my car, I wouldnt even care if you scratch it as you learn to drive in your own because I know how it feels to not be trusted enough. I know how it hurts when your parents dont believe you could decide on your own. I know you just want to experience coming home at 5 in the morning knowing you had one of the best nights of your life not worrying if you’ll get grounded for coming home so late.

I want you to know that I would be the happiest mother if you experience all of those. I want you to bond and enjoy life without minding the time. I know how it feels when you are already having fun but then you need to go home early because your parents would be mad for going home so late. I will not let that thing happened to you, I promise. I trust you enough to do what is right and wrong. To know you’ve had enough to drink and its time to come home. Call me anytime you need a ride. I would listen to the craziest stories you have. I would laugh with you. I want you to know that I’ll support you on whatever dreams you aspire to achieve. You’re happiness is my happiness. Be you my child, you are my world even when you’re not yet made. You are in my mind existing as early as now. Be wise, make your dreams come true and remember I’m just at your back.