#deardiarrhea

Excuse the hobo pants underneath, was too excited to do a proper try on, but!

I got this used dress for 10.99. It still has the tags on, is fully cotton and has pockets. Very peasant ish. Feeling like Claire from Outlander lol. I love it. 🤩

Originally was going to wait until the 14 day mark which would have been the 26th I believe. But bullet's surgeon called and we talked and I showed her his incisions. Hes cleared for gentle walks around the neighborhood, no play obv. So I wont let him near grass as he loves playing in the grass.

He is also off all his medication except for his antibiotic course. So anyway, I feel safe leaving him at home and going back to work tomorrow. I have ring cameras set up inside so I can just monitor him like that. He is resting a lot so I think, he will be okay.

Uni work

My puppercino Bullet (whose healing is doing amazing and that's an understatement)

Not priority but will attempt

Outlining my thesis due in May and my graduation application due in two weeks.

Getting ahead of laundry before it becomes a mountain

Thyroid scan this morning. I had to leave my house at 6am 💀 the technician said she didn't notice anything that wasn't on my last scan so idk I guess maybe that could be a good thing.

The Dr will confirm if the nodule has grown or not. But damn it was painful when she was digging around and the last time they did it, it wasn't painful at all.

Making friends with someone new but someone old. Reminds me I am kind and I'm a mirror of all the (imperfectly) good things, and good people, and good moments Ive ever had.

Why?

I unwrapped all the gifts I got fully. So sweet. Some teachers complain about mugs but I love them. I'm going to get a mug shelf for my classroom and drink out of them. I'm also going to try to declutter the room a bit more and organize the paper stuff around my desk.

I have to submit a spreadsheet to our tech guy tonight and help my dad with something. I feel horrible but I don't really want to have a relationship with my dad most days now.

I've been terrible with my finances this year and my goal for next year is to really hunker down on budgeting and staying frugal, live more simply. Especially if I want to have my own home or get credentialed in a different state (I'm not sure I want to live here much longer.)

My temporary assignment to this classroom ends on January 15, and I believe January 12 I begin my spring semester. I'm almost done with my master's.

I guess I'm just wondering if they're going to offer me a full time teaching position or not. I know I made some pretty vocal commentary on my distaste of the principals leadership style / skills, and brought up that issue with a harassing coworker. (Thankfully someone else just recently made a complaint about her too, so I'm not alone.)

While I hope they do. Maybe I can relax a bit and focus more on self-care until I graduate, have a nice summer and try to get a full year contract at another school and start fresh August 2026. Idk.

More upcoming events: big family reunion in the first week of January. Everyone my generation is supposedly wearing a dark green shade. Not my choice. But I got my outfit.

Christmas....my aunt might invite me over but I'm thinking of maybe keeping my tradition of staying alone. Last year I did go to her house quickly for Christmas eve and then left.

This year has been so crazy in weird ways. I could not have predicted the plot at all... But supposedly that's just how it's supposed to be, and next year will be a fresh start. I'm crossing my fingers but also holding myself accountable to making changes based on behavioral reflection.

My migraine got better and then I got a tummy ache lol. We ate street tacos from a grocery store last night, my brother and I. I think they messed me up. I hardly eat out and it just reminds me how much I love my past line cook/pastry chef life, and my love and ability to cook. Some days it feels like it's my only true talent that I feel proud of.