#deadendtracks

what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

bodyswap: d. i feel like i have really pedestrian tastes atp not super curious about this concept, though the whole 'walking in another's shoes (literally)' opens potential for various plots, both comedic and tragic, that can be compellingly explored according to the bodyswapped characters (<- imagines arthur-as-tommy's attempts at doing tommy's daily paperwork)

character death: c, maybe. if i need a good cry and it's well written then yes, not the thing tend to seek out otherwise though. death is always so definite ...

Thanks, I can see this being a great way to procrastinate!

#1 Do I daydream before I write or just go for it? I probably daydream a good while. I don't know, it depends on the day really. Some fics and chapters spill out in a rush, others take their time to take shape.

#4 How do I choose which fics to write? I don't honestly have all that many ideas, but those that I do have tend to dig their claws into me. I don't feel like I have this box full of ideas and I need to pick one, I write the one idea that is niggling at me! I guess I have also written to prompts too, and Stargazing was born out of a bingo prompt (and a long remembered comment from someone about wanting to read an ABO birth scene). I have to be really interested in the idea though, I have to want to know where it will end and want to write it so that I can find out.

#25 What’s my favourite part of the writing process (worldbuilding, brainstorming/outlining, writing, editing, etc)?

Hey love,

uffff you know what I’m not sure, I made some gifsets when he’s witnout his jacket but I do not have ‘holster tag’ (big mistake 😄) so I would need to search as well.

I just checked board meeting scene but Tommy doesn’t have holster there. 😔

Inspired on Chapter 11's last paragraph from the marvelous fic 'This Bed of Shattered Bone' by @deadendtracks (beware; text from the fic that may be considered to have spoilers below!):

“As if his knees had gone on strike, Tommy folded slowly to the floor and sat there slumped against the balcony door, drawn back into himself. Didn’t look much like a living thing right then, bleached and brittle as driftwood, but that was the nature of resurrection, wasn’t it. The only promise it delivered was the relentless endurance of the engine that animated your battered carcass, whether you welcomed it or not.”

– “This Bed of Shattered Bone” by @deadendtracks

If you haven't read it yet, then you should really give it try! Be mindful of the tags, but other than that, this fic will blow your mind with its brilliant writing, subtle metaphors, an amazing Alfie characterization, and a very interesting look into Tommy Shelby's mystery of a person.

"A journey through the afterlife, otherwise known as Margate."

-as the author puts it.

You can find it here on AO3!! ↓↓↓

I would also like to add that not only does fandom have some class issues with Peaky women, but Steven Knight himself appears to have those issues too. Like, the shittiest things always happen to the women if they’re lower class, while the upper class women are mostly unscathed? This is particularly true of sexual violence and intimate partner violence. I can’t get into the Linda stuff because it will literally ruin my night to think on it, but re: Lizzie:

I think, as you’ve pointed out, that Lizzie has made choices about Tommy and his bad treatment of her that absolutely make sense given her background as a poor sex worker. Like 100% makes sense. I really feel for her and I don’t cast judgment on her character for that. 

I also think that Steven Knight has presented this pretty uncritically in the show, when I think he could have, as the creator of the narrative, presented it much more critically. Like I, as a viewer, understand why she stays with him, but I still fault him for doing these things to her and I wish the show would in some way acknowledge that no matter what profession your partner has previously held, you should treat them with basic respect!

I absolutely cannot get over the way that Tommy manipulates her specifically in light of her past as a sex worker. Like in s2, she’s extremely proud and excited about her new work with the company; you can see her light up when he tests her typing. But then at the end of the season he puts her in a horrible situation with a man he already knows to be violent, and he does this because he knows that she would rather endure this one very risky sexual situation rather than go back to a life with several risky sexual situations a day. (Possibly he’s also aware of her feelings for him, I don’t deny that, but I would argue that her financial situation with the Shelby company is at least as important a factor in her decision to do as he says.) And then you can see him in s5 being quite protective of Lizzie in regards to Oswald Mosley and Mosley’s insinuations about Lizzie’s past as a sex worker--but in the same season, when she bursts out of the house in a panic about having gun violence so close to her children, he intentionally hurts her feelings by basically saying he will always think of her as a sex worker rather than a wife (”I pay for it in my head”) so like...he’s just using it to get her to do what he wants, which includes hurting her when she steps out of line.

This is simply presented by the story without much condemnation and it fucking annoys me. 

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it was sort of like "congrats, you fainted during this test, guess you have pots, try to eat more salt!" and then they didn't listen when I told them why I could do that.

ugh!! that’s bullshit! i got relatively lucky because my mom has CFS and found a very good cardiologist she’s been seeing for awhile and he’s just real and good and helped me figure my shit out

more stuff:

the thing i have a really hard time with re: pots is pacing myself! i was bedbound for months so now that I can get up and walk around i want to DO things. and pots pain comes in on a delay so since there aren’t immediate consequences my dumb brain thinks I’m okay until i’m suddenly very not

i also feel like utter garbage if I eat like a normal sized meal or eat too fast :c pots life is small mini meals and snacks thru the day so you don’t aggravate your stomach

idk if exercise is an option for you? but there’s like 2 pots recovery plans. i’m on a very very slow version of it to build up strength,