I'm trying to make a chaos booklet (combining the material counterparts of the chaos in my head i collected) and it's turning into this really neat and aesthetic thing. I'm very irritated but i can't bring myself to destroy it. (because that's what i initially intended to do, to show my struggle)
Ah, i think i understand the problem: Despite the struggle, these are the things that came out. They don't show the struggle. It's hinted at, it left it's marks, but they don't exist to describe it. So i thought i'd show it by putting more obvious marks. How stupid.
But it still feels wrong to leave it in this nice state. Hmmm.













