when you can't stop stalking someone who isn't even doing anything to you.

➤ 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴 ﹠ 𝙳𝙴𝙴𝙿𝚂𝙿𝙰𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂 … @dawnchased

​A small，neutral sound escaped her throat ⎯⎯ a carefully molded hum of acknowledgment．Her right hand，resting lightly on the notebook，remained steady．

​​❝ Accustomed，❞ Zero mused，the word pronounced with the cool，precise detachment of a dictionary definition．​❝ That suggests a functional adaptation to a persistent，negative feeling．It’s a form of equilibrium，a way to make suffering seem painless for oneself．❞

​The lady’s gaze drifted briefly to the ornate，golden symbols etched onto the high collar of her dark mantle．The Director’s safety was her 𝔭𝑟𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑦 objective，the singular remaining constant in her existence．

​​❝ I，however，𝕷𝐀𝐂𝐊 understanding of “sorrow” or “pain”．They’re emotional stressors I was forced to neutralize in order to do my best．❞ A pause．She turned back to Phainon，her expression utterly serene，yet profoundly vacant．

​​❝ As finale，I must say It’s much easier to live without these concepts．❞ The guardian concluded，her speech flat ﹠ even．To Zero，grief was an obstacle，not a necessary human feeling．

It's funny how the "etherealfated" anon keeps saying I got caught and that I'm trying to beg for forgiveness or something? I don't beg. I know who I am. I don't care what you think of me. The way you act by stalking me and naming all my blogs shows you are the one with the problem. I'm just fine.

To those saying "oh where are your friends to defend you? you have no friends!" Because I said fuck tumblr and found friends elsewhere. People who actually have brains and don't allow themselves to be controlled by one small little childish woman throwing a tantrum.

I have friends. I am happy where I am. I am happy with WHO I am. Because I know I'm not the person Jess wants to say I am. Believe her lies, I don't care anymore. This will be my last update here.

To those who abandoned me... I hope you one day reflect on yourselves and see how manipulated by Jess you really were.

As a writer, I feel the need to preface this with describing that I let out a long sigh before writing this... Cherry. You need to wake up. Reflect on yourself. On your actions. I was always there for you. Jess will leave you. All I can say is that I'm sorry you felt that I was "using" you. But in truth, you had been using me from the start. The moment Lupin dropped you, you came to me and cried about her hurting you. And I was there. I was always there. But it didn't matter. Anytime I needed a friend, you weren't there. Did you ever actually care? I don't think so... because, like them, you can't let go. But I have reflected and I believe my life is better without you...

Good luck. I mean that. I know I said some nasty things and I'm not going to hide that. But I do wish you luck. Maybe when your dreams come true, you'll finally be able to reflect on this moment.

Anyways, Everyone else is irrelevant. They've always been unwanted passengers on this journey in my life. Always jumping on this train when they were never apart of this fight. I get it, they're your friends. But even when things were resolved, you all still caused problems. You're parasites. Drama addicts. But you're gonna have to find someone else to fuck with because it won't be me anymore.

I am stronger than you all think I am.

I will not allow you to hurt me and pull me down.

I have and always will be a fighter.

So fuck you.

You don't get to win.

The  male  only  stared  at  the  other  for  a  second  or  so  before  he  turned  his  attention  away.  Maybe  the  woman  around  him  was  getting  to  him,  but  everyone  telling  him  that  they  would  make  a  great  couple  was  starting  to  creep  into  his  mind.

It  was  annoying  and  unwanted.

He  rolled  his  eyes  and  moved  his  arms  to  cross  over  his  chest  for  a  moment.

"  Fine."  blunt,  no  emotions,  as  he  normally  would  allow.

But  he  was  still  standing  close.  For  some  reason,  his  chest  was  tight  and  his  heart  was  racing.  He  needed  to  forget  about  the  gossip  and  move  on  from  all  of  this.

"  I  don't  fluster,  so  don't  worry  about  it."

“ you don’t deserve the bad things that happen to you. you never did. ” // @dawnchased

Of course Phainon understood - he always felt like the only person who could understand him the most since they were the same person. They shared the same pain and memories after all. Thugh for Phainon, he always seemed to have a much brighter outlook on things ... the hero he always tried to be early on before he grew so tired of the constant cycle resets. Before his mind slowly deteriorated, making him go completely mad as his status seemed to go unnoticed to the one always over looking every cycle.

❝ I know… ❞ He'd murmur, his tone quiet and lifeless as always. Fingers curled into his fists as he gazed down at the ground before him, gently breathing to make himself realize that he was still alive some how. He never deserved any of this...he just wanted to be the hero of this story. ❝But does it matter anymore if I deserved it or not…? It already happened after all. There's no way to change what happened. Atleast with us. ❞