LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS

You're also very two faced.

In fact, ignore my well wishes. That was so hateful of you.

You wonder why your life is so miserable. It's because this is how you treat people who truly care for you.

You don't care about anyone.

I have suffered and you couldn't give a fuck less.

Only reason you blocked was so I couldn't show them how hateful you've been.

You're fake, Cherry.

You always will be.

I've gone by Isaria in the past so maybe that was the name you knew me by. I'm good friends with Ven/Clover, Cherry, Blake/Six. You once IM'd me all excited I was using your R**n H**wood icons when I wrote him, saying you liked seeing them used to write with your "friends" even though that was after you got dropped by them and Katy. you tried to be all buddy buddy with me but then I was told about your behavior back then (late 2018-2019) and I stopped using the icons and didn't talk to you.

you didn't do anything directly to me except victim blame and slut shame RHs victims which does affect me!

"put your big girl pants on" LIKE YOU SHOULD?? okay. "tumblr drama ain't worth..." take your own advice good lord.

"uh duh" you sound 5. do you need a nap? maybe a sippy cup of juicey juice? snack? remember big breaths, smell the flowers and blow out the candle 😊

jess doesn't stalk you. your graphics and writing style are distinct, so when you pop up in rpc tags or on the dash and someone thinks "huh this is a lot like That Person's style" they'll notify Jess so she can block and that's all she does. others in our trauma bonded friend group don't block and occasionally check to see if you're exhibiting concerning behavior (like posting a maps screenshot of a random house with an uncensored address.....) or doing anything that could break the PO so we can let Jess know to add it to the evidence folder for any future legal action should it come to that.

I have changed. But, you see, I have something called freedom of speech and I am going to use it. I am allowed to have thoughts and opinions that don't line up with other people's opinions. I am autistic and my brain doesn't process like everyone else's. And no, bitch, I'm not using that an excuse. I'm saying that I analyze EVERY detail of things before I make a choice in my thoughts on it. It's just who I am. But the internet doesn't like that. If you don't agree with the mass, you must be bad right?

Why are you hanging onto something I already said I made a mistake on. Oh right, because you can't believe me. Because I "repeat behaviors" that you deem bad. And what behaviors are these? Me expressing my opinion? Defending myself? Being rightfully upset when someone leaks my address? Being rightfully upset and wanting to dispel the lies that are told about me??

Jess is certifiably insane. This has gone too far. And no, threat of danger from the individual in question overrides a protective order. It does not protect you when you openly put someone in harms way. I talked to a cop tonight and he confirmed that's not okay, even if she has a protective order.

All I have asked from the start is for her to take the document down and us all go our separate ways. Why is that such an issue? Why be so cruel and vile to someone when ALL I have done is try to be in my own little corner and write.

Why is it okay for Jess to namedrop Cherry in her callout, but the second I confirm a lie with Cherry's own words, it's bad. None of that makes sense.

AND YES SHE DOES STALK. I literally just confirmed it. She was adding screenshots of my RANDOM posts to her callout. But the second I blocked, it stops. THAT is 100% her stalking. And in the past, when we were friends, she straight up TOLD me she had burner blogs to stalk Reci and Lupin. You think I'm gonna trust she's not stalking after I was LITERALLY told by her that she does it??? Bro open your eyes.

You need to move the hell on from the past. That was years ago and I'm not gonna put up with it anymore. But again, talking to a brick wall gets me nowhere. You're never gonna see any sense so I'm gonna stop bothering.

"waaahhh freedom of speech" we are not the government freedom of speech means nothing here bestie. go back to middle school social studies. you can be in your corner and write, but people are allowed to warn people about your past and current behavior and allow them to make their own choices.

you're moaning about me not being able to let go of the past despite me doing absolutely nothing publicly in 5 years while you constantly bring drama up for everybody to see.

evidence of Jess saying she has burner blogs? because I have never seen that and she has never mentioned it. it's not her adding your posts, she's not the only person with access to edit it but this behavior is still something that should be added because you could literally just block and move on but you won't. you feed on drama and negativity.

Boom. Taken TODAY. In fact...

THERE. So you don't think I'm lying.

And no, they always find me. Because it's not just her. It's Reci and Lupin too still stalking me. And then they deep dive and message people who put the blogs on the list and it's the same shit over and over.

I'm allowed to express myself dude. It's as simple as that. And I have apologized multiple times. But then I delete my blogs because people won't leave me alone.

Her saying that was said on VC. Nothing I can do to prove that. But her Kitsune blog was one of them. And a YGO blog I don't think she uses anymore. Those were mentioned ON CALL. So don't go saying I stalked or some shit. I don't even know her YGO one. I only know the Kitsune one because she asked for graphic input (that she ignored) when she was making icons for it.

I watched her edit the doc in real time.

'Everyone else is irrelevant' Hi, so you're saying your other victims don't matter? They're not joining for the ride, you've hurt them and they want your apology. How do you expect them to move on when you're calling them irrelevant? You sure are sounding like a literal predator who only wants to be in good light of their victims they actually like so those victims may think about coming back to you.

And no, they don't want an apology. Because I have apologized numerous times. But it's never enough. They take and they take and they take, all under the guise of not believing in the apology. I'm not going to grovel and beg. I am above that. Anyone who wants someone to do that is worse than the person they are condemning. I'm not going to keep apologizing.

That's what Jess wanted. She never wanted to take accountability for her own actions and played on my insecurities and need, at the time, to feel accepted. Then she tore me down and played on my fear of loneliness by constantly hurting me then refusing to listen when I tried to compromise. There is no compromising with a narcissist because they believe they are never in the wrong. Her words read exactly as the narcissistic ramblings of a 12 year old. She doesn't act 33. She once said "I am not going to change, so you might as well leave." So, you want to sit there and listen to someone who has, IN HER OWN WORDS, admitted she is always going to be petty and refuse to accept any blame... but me, who has changed massively over the years, I "can't" change according to you. But you're wrong. I'm just not jumping like a dog like you want me to. You want me to stop posting my feelings. You want everyone to fall in line. And when they don't and have their own set of rules for how they do things, they're automatically seen as wrong.

Tumblr has created it's own conformist culture. But you're too set in your ways to realize it. Everyone who acts out against the standards that certain people who desire control want are put down and seen as the enemy. I speak out and express my thoughts and that's something you don't want. So you say I need to change a core part of who I am and I say no, that's not going to happen.

I let myself be abused by a man I thought loved me. He held me down to the ground and choked me. And I forgave him. After he STOLE my daughter from me (a part you all get wrong by the way, citing me being unfit when he literally set me up and made me miss a court hearing on purpose) I even STILL tried to compromise with him. I have been ran over by so many people and still I try to be kind to others. I have my faults. I have my issues. I don't excuse them but I do correct them. I have been correcting them for many, many years. I have learn to accept that I cannot be the center of someone's attention. I try to keep myself level BECAUSE of what Jess put me through. I am FIVE AND A HALF YEARS SOBER FROM BEING AN ALCOHOLIC. THAT is real change. But because I don't CONFORM to your fucked up rpc rules from those who desire control, I'm not actually changing in your eyes, right? I apologized for what I've done. Just because some of those apologies got lost to the fucking shadow realm when I deleted blogs out of frustration isn't my fault. And I have even apologized here. But you will say "I don't believe you." So there's no winning the game when it's fucking rigged. And when I go into people's fucking ask boxes and apologize I'm seen as block evading. "These people want apologies." NO. THEY DON'T. CAUSE WHEN I TRY, I'M BLAMED FOR THAT TOO. So shut up with what you THINK you know because you don't know anything.

If these people want apologies, they can reach out and I will apologize if I was at fault. Otherwise, what's the point when I'm gonna get blasted either damn way?

But I will say this again. I am planting my feet firm. I make my own choices. Followers or not, I'm staying. I don't care what you try and do anymore. It's not going to run me away.

'Everyone else is irrelevant' Hi, so you're saying your other victims don't matter? They're not joining for the ride, you've hurt them and they want your apology. How do you expect them to move on when you're calling them irrelevant? You sure are sounding like a literal predator who only wants to be in good light of their victims they actually like so those victims may think about coming back to you.

And no, they don't want an apology. Because I have apologized numerous times. But it's never enough. They take and they take and they take, all under the guise of not believing in the apology. I'm not going to grovel and beg. I am above that. Anyone who wants someone to do that is worse than the person they are condemning. I'm not going to keep apologizing.

That's what Jess wanted. She never wanted to take accountability for her own actions and played on my insecurities and need, at the time, to feel accepted. Then she tore me down and played on my fear of loneliness by constantly hurting me then refusing to listen when I tried to compromise. There is no compromising with a narcissist because they believe they are never in the wrong. Her words read exactly as the narcissistic ramblings of a 12 year old. She doesn't act 33. She once said "I am not going to change, so you might as well leave." So, you want to sit there and listen to someone who has, IN HER OWN WORDS, admitted she is always going to be petty and refuse to accept any blame... but me, who has changed massively over the years, I "can't" change according to you. But you're wrong. I'm just not jumping like a dog like you want me to. You want me to stop posting my feelings. You want everyone to fall in line. And when they don't and have their own set of rules for how they do things, they're automatically seen as wrong.

Tumblr has created it's own conformist culture. But you're too set in your ways to realize it. Everyone who acts out against the standards that certain people who desire control want are put down and seen as the enemy. I speak out and express my thoughts and that's something you don't want. So you say I need to change a core part of who I am and I say no, that's not going to happen.

I let myself be abused by a man I thought loved me. He held me down to the ground and choked me. And I forgave him. After he STOLE my daughter from me (a part you all get wrong by the way, citing me being unfit when he literally set me up and made me miss a court hearing on purpose) I even STILL tried to compromise with him. I have been ran over by so many people and still I try to be kind to others. I have my faults. I have my issues. I don't excuse them but I do correct them. I have been correcting them for many, many years. I have learn to accept that I cannot be the center of someone's attention. I try to keep myself level BECAUSE of what Jess put me through. I am FIVE AND A HALF YEARS SOBER FROM BEING AN ALCOHOLIC. THAT is real change. But because I don't CONFORM to your fucked up rpc rules from those who desire control, I'm not actually changing in your eyes, right? I apologized for what I've done. Just because some of those apologies got lost to the fucking shadow realm when I deleted blogs out of frustration isn't my fault. And I have even apologized here. But you will say "I don't believe you." So there's no winning the game when it's fucking rigged. And when I go into people's fucking ask boxes and apologize I'm seen as block evading. "These people want apologies." NO. THEY DON'T. CAUSE WHEN I TRY, I'M BLAMED FOR THAT TOO. So shut up with what you THINK you know because you don't know anything.

If these people want apologies, they can reach out and I will apologize if I was at fault. Otherwise, what's the point when I'm gonna get blasted either damn way?

But I will say this again. I am planting my feet firm. I make my own choices. Followers or not, I'm staying. I don't care what you try and do anymore. It's not going to run me away.

'Everyone else is irrelevant' Hi, so you're saying your other victims don't matter? They're not joining for the ride, you've hurt them and they want your apology. How do you expect them to move on when you're calling them irrelevant? You sure are sounding like a literal predator who only wants to be in good light of their victims they actually like so those victims may think about coming back to you.

And no, they don't want an apology. Because I have apologized numerous times. But it's never enough. They take and they take and they take, all under the guise of not believing in the apology. I'm not going to grovel and beg. I am above that. Anyone who wants someone to do that is worse than the person they are condemning. I'm not going to keep apologizing.

That's what Jess wanted. She never wanted to take accountability for her own actions and played on my insecurities and need, at the time, to feel accepted. Then she tore me down and played on my fear of loneliness by constantly hurting me then refusing to listen when I tried to compromise. There is no compromising with a narcissist because they believe they are never in the wrong. Her words read exactly as the narcissistic ramblings of a 12 year old. She doesn't act 33. She once said "I am not going to change, so you might as well leave." So, you want to sit there and listen to someone who has, IN HER OWN WORDS, admitted she is always going to be petty and refuse to accept any blame... but me, who has changed massively over the years, I "can't" change according to you. But you're wrong. I'm just not jumping like a dog like you want me to. You want me to stop posting my feelings. You want everyone to fall in line. And when they don't and have their own set of rules for how they do things, they're automatically seen as wrong.

Tumblr has created it's own conformist culture. But you're too set in your ways to realize it. Everyone who acts out against the standards that certain people who desire control want are put down and seen as the enemy. I speak out and express my thoughts and that's something you don't want. So you say I need to change a core part of who I am and I say no, that's not going to happen.

I let myself be abused by a man I thought loved me. He held me down to the ground and choked me. And I forgave him. After he STOLE my daughter from me (a part you all get wrong by the way, citing me being unfit when he literally set me up and made me miss a court hearing on purpose) I even STILL tried to compromise with him. I have been ran over by so many people and still I try to be kind to others. I have my faults. I have my issues. I don't excuse them but I do correct them. I have been correcting them for many, many years. I have learn to accept that I cannot be the center of someone's attention. I try to keep myself level BECAUSE of what Jess put me through. I am FIVE AND A HALF YEARS SOBER FROM BEING AN ALCOHOLIC. THAT is real change. But because I don't CONFORM to your fucked up rpc rules from those who desire control, I'm not actually changing in your eyes, right? I apologized for what I've done. Just because some of those apologies got lost to the fucking shadow realm when I deleted blogs out of frustration isn't my fault. And I have even apologized here. But you will say "I don't believe you." So there's no winning the game when it's fucking rigged. And when I go into people's fucking ask boxes and apologize I'm seen as block evading. "These people want apologies." NO. THEY DON'T. CAUSE WHEN I TRY, I'M BLAMED FOR THAT TOO. So shut up with what you THINK you know because you don't know anything.

If these people want apologies, they can reach out and I will apologize if I was at fault. Otherwise, what's the point when I'm gonna get blasted either damn way?

But I will say this again. I am planting my feet firm. I make my own choices. Followers or not, I'm staying. I don't care what you try and do anymore. It's not going to run me away.

'Everyone else is irrelevant' Hi, so you're saying your other victims don't matter? They're not joining for the ride, you've hurt them and they want your apology. How do you expect them to move on when you're calling them irrelevant? You sure are sounding like a literal predator who only wants to be in good light of their victims they actually like so those victims may think about coming back to you.

And no, they don't want an apology. Because I have apologized numerous times. But it's never enough. They take and they take and they take, all under the guise of not believing in the apology. I'm not going to grovel and beg. I am above that. Anyone who wants someone to do that is worse than the person they are condemning. I'm not going to keep apologizing.

That's what Jess wanted. She never wanted to take accountability for her own actions and played on my insecurities and need, at the time, to feel accepted. Then she tore me down and played on my fear of loneliness by constantly hurting me then refusing to listen when I tried to compromise. There is no compromising with a narcissist because they believe they are never in the wrong. Her words read exactly as the narcissistic ramblings of a 12 year old. She doesn't act 33. She once said "I am not going to change, so you might as well leave." So, you want to sit there and listen to someone who has, IN HER OWN WORDS, admitted she is always going to be petty and refuse to accept any blame... but me, who has changed massively over the years, I "can't" change according to you. But you're wrong. I'm just not jumping like a dog like you want me to. You want me to stop posting my feelings. You want everyone to fall in line. And when they don't and have their own set of rules for how they do things, they're automatically seen as wrong.

Tumblr has created it's own conformist culture. But you're too set in your ways to realize it. Everyone who acts out against the standards that certain people who desire control want are put down and seen as the enemy. I speak out and express my thoughts and that's something you don't want. So you say I need to change a core part of who I am and I say no, that's not going to happen.

I let myself be abused by a man I thought loved me. He held me down to the ground and choked me. And I forgave him. After he STOLE my daughter from me (a part you all get wrong by the way, citing me being unfit when he literally set me up and made me miss a court hearing on purpose) I even STILL tried to compromise with him. I have been ran over by so many people and still I try to be kind to others. I have my faults. I have my issues. I don't excuse them but I do correct them. I have been correcting them for many, many years. I have learn to accept that I cannot be the center of someone's attention. I try to keep myself level BECAUSE of what Jess put me through. I am FIVE AND A HALF YEARS SOBER FROM BEING AN ALCOHOLIC. THAT is real change. But because I don't CONFORM to your fucked up rpc rules from those who desire control, I'm not actually changing in your eyes, right? I apologized for what I've done. Just because some of those apologies got lost to the fucking shadow realm when I deleted blogs out of frustration isn't my fault. And I have even apologized here. But you will say "I don't believe you." So there's no winning the game when it's fucking rigged. And when I go into people's fucking ask boxes and apologize I'm seen as block evading. "These people want apologies." NO. THEY DON'T. CAUSE WHEN I TRY, I'M BLAMED FOR THAT TOO. So shut up with what you THINK you know because you don't know anything.

If these people want apologies, they can reach out and I will apologize if I was at fault. Otherwise, what's the point when I'm gonna get blasted either damn way?

But I will say this again. I am planting my feet firm. I make my own choices. Followers or not, I'm staying. I don't care what you try and do anymore. It's not going to run me away.

'Everyone else is irrelevant' Hi, so you're saying your other victims don't matter? They're not joining for the ride, you've hurt them and they want your apology. How do you expect them to move on when you're calling them irrelevant? You sure are sounding like a literal predator who only wants to be in good light of their victims they actually like so those victims may think about coming back to you.

And no, they don't want an apology. Because I have apologized numerous times. But it's never enough. They take and they take and they take, all under the guise of not believing in the apology. I'm not going to grovel and beg. I am above that. Anyone who wants someone to do that is worse than the person they are condemning. I'm not going to keep apologizing.

That's what Jess wanted. She never wanted to take accountability for her own actions and played on my insecurities and need, at the time, to feel accepted. Then she tore me down and played on my fear of loneliness by constantly hurting me then refusing to listen when I tried to compromise. There is no compromising with a narcissist because they believe they are never in the wrong. Her words read exactly as the narcissistic ramblings of a 12 year old. She doesn't act 33. She once said "I am not going to change, so you might as well leave." So, you want to sit there and listen to someone who has, IN HER OWN WORDS, admitted she is always going to be petty and refuse to accept any blame... but me, who has changed massively over the years, I "can't" change according to you. But you're wrong. I'm just not jumping like a dog like you want me to. You want me to stop posting my feelings. You want everyone to fall in line. And when they don't and have their own set of rules for how they do things, they're automatically seen as wrong.

Tumblr has created it's own conformist culture. But you're too set in your ways to realize it. Everyone who acts out against the standards that certain people who desire control want are put down and seen as the enemy. I speak out and express my thoughts and that's something you don't want. So you say I need to change a core part of who I am and I say no, that's not going to happen.

I let myself be abused by a man I thought loved me. He held me down to the ground and choked me. And I forgave him. After he STOLE my daughter from me (a part you all get wrong by the way, citing me being unfit when he literally set me up and made me miss a court hearing on purpose) I even STILL tried to compromise with him. I have been ran over by so many people and still I try to be kind to others. I have my faults. I have my issues. I don't excuse them but I do correct them. I have been correcting them for many, many years. I have learn to accept that I cannot be the center of someone's attention. I try to keep myself level BECAUSE of what Jess put me through. I am FIVE AND A HALF YEARS SOBER FROM BEING AN ALCOHOLIC. THAT is real change. But because I don't CONFORM to your fucked up rpc rules from those who desire control, I'm not actually changing in your eyes, right? I apologized for what I've done. Just because some of those apologies got lost to the fucking shadow realm when I deleted blogs out of frustration isn't my fault. And I have even apologized here. But you will say "I don't believe you." So there's no winning the game when it's fucking rigged. And when I go into people's fucking ask boxes and apologize I'm seen as block evading. "These people want apologies." NO. THEY DON'T. CAUSE WHEN I TRY, I'M BLAMED FOR THAT TOO. So shut up with what you THINK you know because you don't know anything.

If these people want apologies, they can reach out and I will apologize if I was at fault. Otherwise, what's the point when I'm gonna get blasted either damn way?

But I will say this again. I am planting my feet firm. I make my own choices. Followers or not, I'm staying. I don't care what you try and do anymore. It's not going to run me away.