Now as I get older, I understand why it's better to live the single life. I can wake up peacefully without a dead arm from being in the "cuddle" position all night. I can think about what to do with all of the time in my day. I can go wherever, whenever without being tied down. I fucking love it. But, there's these thoughts that float in the back of my mind of being able to experience the world with that special one... to come up in the game knowing you had that one girl before all the fame. Those kind of thoughts. I'm doubting the inevitable if I think I'm never going to find that one. The way I think, is that if you focus on yourself & work towards where you want to be in life, destiny will find you.. Like, I want to have a job I love doing & have the funds to be able to do the things I love & be able to support my family when the time is right. I've seen kids have kids when they were barely figuring themselves out. I knew I didn't want to end up like that, so that's why I ended up like this.