Anxiety, nerves, excitement & promise. An inner lust for revelry & adventure draped loosely in the harsh reality that is the unknown. It trails me slyly, handcuffed to self doubt, waiting for my soul’s sobriety. Living life this way I’m learning is like playing tug of war with your subconscious. And it is war. This is why, however, there is so much to learn & so much to gain. Standing at the cliff’s edge, peering down to the depths of your potential failure or letting your eyes catch the sunrise in the distance. Dawning a new chapter, a new day & dripping in renewal, you reach for it with arms outstretched in optimism. Stumbling at first & losing your balance, so close to the free fall, you are caught, you find strength & then it happens - flight. Flight is true joy & for now, I’ve simply pulled up to the mountainside, ready to tempt it’s heights with all my ambition. No one is promised wings, only the seeds of courage. No one is promised a bright sunrise, but only the eventual end to the tease of the twilight. No one is promised fulfillment. We are only given a choice to entertain the journey required to discover it, wherever it may be, and this gift is the treasure we protect from our self doubt, our worry & our fear. This war we fight alone but it's victory? ..we share with the world forever.

I typically think that writing just for the sake of writing is pretty much bullish*t. But then again, I also know there's plenty on my mind that if it isn't getting dumped out here it's building up in some back corner of my brain or waiting to infiltrate the earballs of some poor soul who manages to share a midnight walk with me. I like to think these pages aren't public, that I can spill here like I'd be the only one to see it, but in a way, the fact that it is makes revealing how I'm feeling therapeutic in a different kind of way. I'm going through a change in my life, I'm taking a sharp right turn, I'm going "against the grain" and against the better judgement of most of my peers all for sake of chasing a matter of the heart, a matter of passion. I'm the dumbest smart kid some people know and one of the most inspiring for others. I'm flattered by both, really, but more just because what I do & don't do shouldn't matter to other people, right? But it does, even to a small extent, and that's inspiring to me personally. I care about the struggles and victories of other people deeply. I want that intimate connection, that shared experience, that opportunity to be genuine and be real and get to know someone new or old on a deeper level. I guess that's maybe what this new blog is for me really, a place where you can dive into who I am if you want to. A place for me to practice being naked for the world to see, unashamed and entirely genuine. Artists like to control this or that about how they're perceived and maybe that'll be me one day too to an extent, but my goal is to be able to be 100% me and have that be okay. No quality control necessary - just Dave. And if that isn't enough, there's a trillion other websites for you to go wander through. But for me, looking into the mirror unashamed and hopefully proud of the guy in the reflection, that's important. Having the balls to put it out there for you to accept or disregard? For now, that'll be this page. So, "Cheers" I guess. Enjoy the rambling..