#dating stuff

i've now been single for 2,5 years since my divorce, transed my gender after that and i have to say the loneliness is making me have some weird, desperate thoughts.

back when i was a woman i would've never wanted to be a trophy wife and detested the thought and existance of the mere concept, but now that i'm a guy and getting desperate i totally understand the fantasy of someone coming to your life, love bombing you like crazy and then financially taking care of you.

i know it doesn't work like that but i'm going insane having to date 30yos who are 'not looking for anything serious' or are 'already main partnered and looking for a side'. these are both alright things to want but it seems impossible no else is looking for the same thing as me? love? companionship? shared life?

Me: how much time u got

Him: AlL nIgHt

The Good News: My date is the absolute loveliest person, completely understood that my body is kind of unpredictable right now, and reassured me that she didn't think anything of it. Also, the rescheduling may allow me enough time to bake her some kind of spell recipe for the new date, depending on how I'm feeling. Possibly more self-love cookies. I don't see why I shouldn't feed all of my lady-dates self-love cookies.

The Great News: Instead of cleaning the guest bathroom this morning, I went back to bed with my cat! I'll have to really brush her out later, though; she's so rumpled from rolling around in bed and cuddling all night and morning.