#datewithabba

Going back to what's important in my life. I haven't cracked open my bible in I don't know how long and tonight that changes.

I see the beauty of your words that bring light to my every step. Thankful for the love and grace you show me everyday even though I don't deserve it.

I just need to write on here to spill some personal feelings out. It might or might not make sense. You can just scroll through and ignore it if you'd like but I just need to type this out. There are definitely moments in which I need to be reminded that I am good enough. I don't mean good enough for a guy but just good enough period. Recently, I've been feeling just how distant I have been when it come to my faith. It's not easy especially when I hear remarks everywhere around me that what I believe in is crap. Today I've been so moody and feeling like I just want to yell at everyone. My jaw even feels really tense like if I'm angry. I shared my feeling with my mom and she simply said to just have a quiet time and let God handle the rest. I rolled my eyes like if It was really that simple. I locked myself in my room and dusted off my bible. I decided that I would just start in the beginning and actually pay attention to what it says. In everything that God created, he saw it as good. When it came to creating Adam and Eve it says that He created them in his own image and that it was good. When I apply that to me I'm reminded that his hands crafted my features and my way of being. He took time to mold and make me with my unique features and he saw me as good. Everything that He creates is good. Tonight I was reminded that I AM good and more than enough. I'm not a mistake or a failure but I am good. I am where I am meant to be and I am constantly being improved and guided to go in the direction I am meant to travel. Recently...well I guess for a while now...I have been feeling like I'm ready to give up on my goals which seem so unachievable, I feel like everyone is moving forward and they have new exciting things happening and I don't. I feel like I have let myself and family down like I disappointed so many that have been cheering me on. That's why I have been feeling like I'm just not good enough to actually achieve what I want to or like life is just never on my side. But tonight (morning?) i was reminded that I am good and that I am enough. I have purpose that was set long before I was even walking and breathing. I had conformation a long time a go that I was exactly where I am suppose to be and I need to keep reminding myself of that. Ok I feel like I'm rambling random stuff now so I'm gonna just go to sleep. -N

#lovelyfriday #datewithabba #mumfords #thankful

I was reading Romans 6 today and man was it convicting. God's grace is new every morning to me, but I should not have the mentality of voluntarily going out of my way to sin and thinking "it's ok. I'll get another shot tomorrow." I'm starting to see how messed up my way of thinking is. But the beauty in all of this is that I recognize it and work on improving myself. I want my life to be a fruitful one and not one in which I look back on and feel shame and regret. I have gone through some stuff that I look at now and feel so stupid about. I want my heart to be in the right place and I want my steps to be on the right path that I have veered so far from. I'm thankful that God loves me beyond measure to where every morning his grace is new to me. I don't want to abuse that beautiful gift. God's grace is not a free pass to sin.