#darkvoidtrash

I really don't understand myself and been wanting to for a lot of years

And I can't see myself doing more than cheek kisses and hugs but idk maybe it's the inexperience of someone showing affection towards me (or the trauma)

Like seeing sex on the TV (real life or animation) freaks me out but idk if that's normal (reading it's completely fine but I can't see anything that has it without feeling deeply uncomfortable, even if they aren't showing anything and all you see it's movements under the sheets)

I also dont understand sexual attraction or romantic attraction (I sometimes get the I wish I was friends with this person thoughts but that's all) but this could be because the long running joke in my family that I'm autistic (haven't been tested)