#danikaftw

@danikaftw said: I wish I could send more to help. Try to remember to take care of yourself, too, in times like these. Hydrate, Eat, and try to sleep. ♥

@memyselfvstheworld said: Siento mucho tu perdida, espero que puedas ir a ver a tu familia pronto y pasen este duro momento juntos. Mis mejores deseos

Answering these together so I won’t spam people so much with this.

Thank you so much guys!

I completely ignored my alarm clock today, and have done absolutely nothing save trip back home-related stuff, like calling kennels for Raven and asking my cousin if I can crash at his place in madrid before taking a flight. I think I’m actually going to manage, so BIG THANK YOU to everyone, this means so much more than I could possibly explain with words. Everyone’s seriously amazing and I adore you all so so much <3

In the meantime, I’m trying to distract myself… I feel awkward doing so, like, idk, like it’s not appropriate or something? like watching tv or being here on tumblr now is completely out of line and means I don’t care, but I rationally know I just physically can’t be crying all the time, that it’s normal for grief to come in waves and it’s normal for me to need to “keep going” and to do things to distract myself… but I still feel bad about it… *sighs*

I WANT TO PLAY. It's awful being at that so-broke point that you can't buy a game to make you happy and pass the time. I HOPE YOU FIND FRENS, LI!

I think the core question is: why are they afraid? Is there someone in their life who ODed or is addicted? Or is it a physical reaction to the act of taking them? Cutting them up helps. Making them into a powder and putting into pudding/apple sauce.

Sorry I wasn’t more specific.  I was referring to the anxiety that a lot of Spoonies develop, after being sick for a while, about taking a handful of pills.  Some of us end up on a lot of supplements and/or scripts (I take around 12 pills at every meal).  And for whatever reason, a lot of us start being unable to make ourselves physically swallow them.  I managed to get past my anxiety after a while.  But I was still able to at least take them one at a time.  And this wasn’t going to help the person I was talking to.

I don't know what emotions I'm feeling right now. There are too many.

I just have one question.