#damagedoracle

☯ I might be biased because of my current interests, but I really think it is Markus. The character is a mix of many things that are important to me. There’s empathy and morals/worldview on one hand, wish fulfillment on the other, and then there’s the aesthetic aspect of the muse, too. He’s almost too good to be true. Since he’s an activist as well, fighting for an underrepresented and oppressed group he belongs to himself, I can relate to him very deeply, but since he possesses qualities that I don’t have, I can also grow by writing him. I have to imagine the chosen scenarios and his actions and can use some of my findings in real life, which almost feels like a friend’s guidance. What would Markus do in that situation? He’s much braver and more stable than me despite his hypersensitivity (a trait we share), which inspires me to become a better version of myself. Then there is the wish fulfillment, the things that he can have but I can’t, like unconditional love, a relationship or deep, touching friendships (for reasons that are too complex to explain now). By writing things that are possible for Markus because he’s himself but impossible for me because I’m me, I have the chance to alleviate some of the pain and escape reality for a while. Lastly, he’s a joy to look at and using his icons or sharing gifsets of him always feels nice. He really is a multitude of things to me. A character I relate to on a spiritual level and a symbol for social justice but also a coping method and a piece of art. I adore him to bits and am still in awe that a character like him exists.