#damagedheart

I remembered the therapist’s advice when I had undergone for a psychosocial therapy, that “the misfortune happened to me was not my fault” she also said that, “I should start to befriend and love myself, therefore, happiness and contentment will become inevitable for my being”. I wanted to believe in her, but, my mind and my emotions were in a constant battle if can I still able to do those things, as each day, I hate myself more for the things and decisions I have done.

Sometimes, I would woke up around 3:00AM with my eyes full of tears because of the nightmares of my past and even tried to calm my mind by watching something inspirational to bring my motivation back to work and socialize again with people. 

I know deep in my heart, what I really want and that is to heal my heart and my body from physical and mental trauma. 

Can I still do this even if my heart and my body were damaged already? </3