#daine.yaps

i swear im gonna continue jashing the tober right after i fail (or pass) my upcoming french exam

y do i have to act like a basic ass bitch js to have a flowing conversation with em that isnt about literally everything ive fucking done wrong

if I had a nickel every time i'd find a character i would deeply kin to and start dissecting each and every part of them to find all the stuff we have in common and all the stuff we don't because even tho i feel deeply connected to them, i want to try and keep a logical approach and not just following along because i want to terribly be like them and so i find and keep a mental list of what we have in common and what we don't, with the "not common" list usually containing 2-3 little tidbits about them mostly regarding their personality and actions because i can acknowledge that what they did may be extremely embarrassing and cliche so there's no way i'd do something so embarrassing and cliche, especially since i acknowledge it's embarrassing and cliche only to catch myself doing the SAME EXACT thing they did that was embarrassing and cliche and then i start spiralling into whether or not I may actually be them and how is it even possible for my entire existence to be near-accurately showcased into words/frames and my head falls to my hands and my gaze wanders off the distance and i start wondering if maybe i could also actually relate to the other embarrassing and cliche stuff they did and the thought is too unbearable and then i think about how the things we have in common are unsurprisingly depressing and just pathetic yet at the same time i feel so seen but at what cost and so i make countless AUs of them and often think of them as i fall sleep and i love them so much i want the whole world to know that i love them and kin them so much but if they ever ask me what makes me kin them so much i'd just be frozen, words failing to come out of my mouth as i recall their lowest moments and remember thinking "yeah, that's me!" because you can't just say you felt deeply connected to a scene where they were on the brink of crashing out and specifically worrying about what's the point of having morals if you don't even act on them and maybe, actually, i could say that, but i wont and i dont even have any idea if my friends even know why i kin them so much because they probably and reasonably wont even think much about it, and the color green is an important part of their character design, i'd have 2 nickels, which is not much but it's crazy that it has happened twice.

I got an oc lore idea all of a sudden I started kicking the air but I was standing so I slumped forward and fell to the ground

just read the most heartbreaking fic and was being upset about it even tho i read the tags, so now I'm gonna find another fic of the same pairing with equally if not worse tags and hope for the best.

everything's fine. just powering through the day like how i power through a fic with heavy mischaracterization on a favorite character where each line feels like a stab to the chest but i don't have a choice because it's the closest to the standard. so how's ur day

ive got so much rage for this certain part of fanworks media I'm literally going to strangle someone