#daesang

the next day wasnt any better. you woke up, got ready for practice, and headed off- back to the JYP building. but today, it was different. he didnt just leave after practice like usual. he..asked you out.

yes, asked you out. he approached you after practice, the same stupid smile that made you melt plastered on his face, his hand scratching the back of his neck, and cheeks flushed in a shade of red. "heyyy." he said awkwardly, and glanced to the door, where you could see hyunjin and jeongin peeking at the doorway. you held in a laugh-they were so unserious.

"i was wondering if.. you wanted to grab a coffee or something?" he looked down, as if he was nervous. it really shocked you- how could bangchan be nervous about asking her on a date? you mentally smack yourself. you were big in the industry too, damn it.

you smiled immediately, nodding. "yes!" you gushed- too enthusiastically. your face fell and you cleared your throat, giving a small nod of approval. "i mean.. sure. id love that."

bangchan tried to hold in a laugh at your enthusiasm, before grinning back. "then, lets go." he said. his nerves seemed to have calmed when you said yes.

jeongin and hyunjin pumped their fists in the air, disappearing from the doorway with giggles. bangchan muttered a curse under his breath to the two boys, and you couldn't help but let a small laugh escape.

the cafe was really cute. fancy, even. it had a small bakery, filled with cute pastries like strawberry turnovers- your favorite. it also had small circular tables fit for two, small vases with pink tulips and gold trimmed decor on counters. you two were fresh out of practice, still wearing your loose, dance clothes. you had a mask on, and he wore a hat- just to make sure that people couldn't recognize you guys well. biggest 4th gen groups in kpop after all!

"so.." bangchan spoke, his tone laced with a hint of nervousness. it surprised you, really. with his demeanor on camera, and during performances; you'd never think he could be an awkward person. "i heard you're working on a comeback?" he smiled. "tell me about it. well- if you can."

you couldn't help but smile, though your mask hid it, the soft crinkling of your eyes gave it away. "promise to keep it a secret." you teased, which he responded to with a zip of his lips. "promise."

"okay, so it's this big sporty-ish concept. the song's called rich man. the name made me skeptical- but i promise it's fire." you gushed.

bangchan's eyes lit up. "oooh-" he started. and with that, you guys talked for hours. exchanging trainee stories, award show bloopers, comebacks, favorite songs, albums, you guys talked about everything and anything.

it surprised you so, so much. how could you talk to casually with him? were you guys friends now? but you couldnt help but notice; how his cheeks went red when you complimented him, how he messed up his words with you, how he scratched the back of his neck whenever you said something about him. girl, you were down bad.

you guys sat at the cafe till like 7pm. the streetlights had switched on, streets became calm except for the occasional hum and chirping of birds nearby. you two decided to get out the cafe and go on a short walk before heading back to your own dorms.

now walking through a secluded park in seoul, a comfortable silence overtook you both as you walked side by side, shoulders occasionally touching.

he looks over at you, gazing at your face tenderly, before speaking. "you're really pretty, you know."

you couldn't help but widen your eyes slightly. you glanced over at him slowly, a small smile on your lips. "..thank you." you spoke, your voice barely above a whisper. "you're really handsome."

his face flushed a light shade of pink and so did yours; making you both burst into laughter. "carefull.." he teased. "first you steal my off days with the practices, now you're stealing my heart?" you couldnt help but giggle at the corny joke, yet you found it cute. his hand gently found yours, interwining your fingers. "you know," he grins wider when you give his hand a small squeeze. "i was like...over the moon when i found out the collab stage was with you."

you frown, disbelieving. "no way!" you exclaim. "i was over the moon. like, i've admired your work and all. for a long time."

chan tilts his head slightly, smirking. "reallyy? i guess we both had a thing for each other, then."

the world seems to grow silent behind you both as the cool breeze envelops you into a comfortable silence once more. his eyes gaze into yours affectionately, and you do the same. "y/n.." he breathes out softly, his hand coming up to rest on your jaw. "can i...kiss you?"

the words hit you like a ton of bricks, your heart beating faster than anything. you muster up a small nod, looking up at him.

he nods at your approval, before leaning down; and you guys kiss. his hand rests on your jaw, yours on his shoulders. the kiss is short and sweet, just enough to let you both know that something has changed between you guys; a hidden love that's bloomed.

now there you both are, at MAMA awards, backstage after your collab stage. "it went so well!" you exclaim, jumping up and down. he laughs and nods. "you did amazing."

"so did you." you nudge his shoulder playfully.

the staff turn up from a corner, smiling at you both. so far, your relationship had been a secret from the world, and only some staff, your groups, and your managers had known (chaeun was the happiest girl ever hearing this). "okay lovebirds, you both have to return to your group's tables. award ceremony's starting!"

you nod as he leaves, turning back to bangchan. "good luck." i smile. "i know you're gonna win like..multiple daesangs."

he giggles, ruffling your hair- then hurrying to fix it. "oh comee on. you're overexaggerating."

with that, you both head back to your group tables.

you make your way through the dozens of tables surrounding the "idol" area, finding aespa's table as you sit down beside karina. her eyes widen when you sit down. "girl, i thought you weren't gonna make it in time!" she whispers.

giselle leans forward from across the table and smacks your shoulder gently. "you were with your..boyfriend- werent you?" she teased. winter gasped dramatically, hands flying over her mouth. "y/n, you shameless, shameless girl." ningning giggles, nudging giselle. "oh come on, theyre cute. and the performancee...ooohh." you roll your eyes playfully, scoffing. "oh come on. you guys are insufferable."

karina shushes you all, gesturing to the big screen. "its starting!"

there were 4 big daesang titles; artist of the year, album of the year, song of the year, and fans choice of the year. other titles such as best female group, best dance, rap, vocal performance, etc- were also amazing.

as the hosts step on stage and start to announce winners one by one, you and the girls hold hands, and the surroundings begin to fade out.

best new artist, best male group, best rap performance.. all the titles fade out as the category is mentioned. the daesang awards.

the announcer starts speaking, looking down at the small envelope in his hands. "For Fan's choice of the year..." you all squeeze each other's hands.

"Enhypen!"

you pause, then start clapping. you were close friends with jungwon, after all. after they give their acceptance speech and step off, the next category is to be called up.

ningning whispers, "its okay, we still got this. 3 more titles left."

giselle nods. "yeah guys, we got this." she smiles, earning a nod from you and karina. winter squeezes your shoulder.

"song of the year..."

"apt by rose and bruno mars!!"

you all clap again, but your heart thumps harder than usual. 2 more titles left. rose wasn't at the mama awards so they skipped her acceptance speech.. next category!

"album of the year..."

"stray kids!"

this time, instead of disappointment, your eyes lit up. you clapped and cheered a little, which led to a playful nudge from karina, a knowing grin on her face as the screen switched to Stray Kids. All of the members were shocked, and grinning. you saw bangchan, cheering and smiling as he helped leeknow up. they all made their way to the stage, and you couldn't help but beam up at the screen. you knew you were gonna tease him about this later.

ningning leaned in to whisper, "look! thats your man!"

winter giggles, pushing ningning away playfully. "god, leave the poor girl alone."

as stray kids began their speech, the audience grew quiet. seungmin spoke first, talking about the hardwork they put in and the challenges theyve faced in order to be where they are right now, before handing the mic to bangchan. you could see that they were all crying, bangchan also. bangchan spoke about the training periods, the amount of useless hate they got, and all the criticism they faced to be as successful as they are. you were really proud of him. after he'd actually opened up to you and told you everything, you felt like you could understand him. and that meant a lot, to both you and him. as their speech ends and they step off the stage, the next category is to be announced. the last one.

"artist of the year.." the announcer speaks, as you and the girls all squeeze each other's hands. "it's okay if it's not us. i mean, there's always next year.." winter speaks.

"aespa!" the announcer exclaims.

all of you guys' shoulders slump disappointedly, absent-mindly clapping for whoever won. the audience roars with cheers and clapping, and the camera pans to you guys. its only after you guys look up at the screen that you notice- oh my god. you won.

"wait-! thats us." giselle exclaims, then screams. "OH MY GOD, THAT'S US!" ningning shrieks and grabs Giselle's hand, and they both exclaim excitedly. winter grins and laughs, and karina's face lights up and she jumps up. your jaw is wide open as you stare up onto the screen, you guys on the cover of "Artist of the Year". karina pulls you and the girls into a tight hug before you make your way on stage. you did it. you got your dream.

as karina starts giving the acceptance speech, you look over at the crowd and idols in front of you. some are your dearest friends, and one is the man you love. bangchan beams up at you, giving you a thumbs up. you can't help but smile wider, before karina hands you the mic.

"well, this was my biggest dream-" you start, tears stinging your eyes lightly. "ever since i was a kid, i've always wanted to be up here. and thanks to my members and all of you guys, i am. we all are." you continue, before smiling.

as the speech ends, the camera pans on you guys going back to your seats with the award in hand, when bangchan suddenly runs to you, arms wrapping around you in a tight hug. karina's eyes widen and ningning yelps in surprise. you grin and hug him back, arms wrapping around his neck. "you did it!" he whispers. "you too."

he smiles, pulling back slightly to look at your face. "you know something?"

"hm?"

he presses a soft kiss to your cheek, "this is better than any award."

the crowd practically explodes with gasps and cheers, including a few loud cheers from idols. you didn't really know what the future held for you..

but right now, it was perfect.

oh my days bro this is so so so so so cringy but i had to put an end to the lil fanfic my baddd

@anoras-stuff here you go pookie 😼