A Choice Not Mine Chapter 7
I have finally been able to write to you properly. My brother said that I shouldn’t as the king would have tossed it aside before you were able to read it. However, upon hearing of your marriage and all of it, I felt that perhaps I would be allowed to write. In truth, I have written this letter time and time again, trying to find the right words.
A part of me wishes to hate you. I want to hate you so badly because there is no one left to hate. Who else can I hate but you?
I want to be angry at Ashara for what she did. I want to be angry at her selfishness. I want to be angry that she could do this to any of us. But she always felt so very deeply and once she made a decision, there was no talking her out of it. For better or for worse.
Her name is Naerys. The baby’s, I mean. That is what Ashara named her. I told her that, perhaps, we could name her after our mother, but she was against it. She always planned on relinquishing the sweet babe to you. Ashara thought it best that Naerys have nothing connecting her to Dorne save for the name Sand.
She… Ashara was never meant to be a mother. She loved children dearly, but she was not meant to be a mother, not meant to have a child of her own. I think it’s why she did not think one moment of her daughter when she leapt from the tower. My only relief is that she had not taken the child with her as a way to harm you. For that, at least, I can be thankful.
Naerys needs her father, Daeron. And I pray that you will be able to be with her soon. She is adorable, Daeron, and I know that you would love her with your whole heart. Her hair is a dark sort of honey gold and her eyes are the color of irises. And her nose, by all the gods. Her cheeks as well. She is such a cheerful and happy baby that any might find joy in her presence.
I pray that you will be able to send for her soon and that you might hold her in your arms as well. I await the day that you two might meet. Too many were unable to return home after the rebellion. Too many were never able to reunite in this life. I can at least pray that your family might be able to come together where others can’t.
Naerys. His daughter’s name was Naerys.
Daeron sat down upon his chair and prayed that he might be able to make this right, that he might be able to protect his daughter when her mother no longer could.