I struggle to identify myself religiously.
Post-rabbinical Judaism sounds nice, but it's too vague to actually mean anything in practice. Also, I feel like my beliefs recently have had more in common with neopaganism than with actual Judaism.
I do feel like I'm Jewish, that much is clear. But I am also polytheistic, and I worship a few deities from the ancient Canaanite pantheon. Those deities were almost certainly worshipped in ancient Israel and Judah, even though they were rejected along the development of Judaism.
But I also try to go to the synagogue on Shabat, to do tefilah, to study Torah and to build community with other Jews. I hold Hebrew as my sacred language, and Palestine as my holy land. My partner is Masorti Jewish, and despite our different beliefs I do feel like we have very similar religions.
I honestly don't know if my beliefs can be considered compatible with Judaism. Maybe I could call it Israelite Polytheism? I fear it would upset people... Just avodah zarah is enough for a tumblr bio for now, I guess.
