#d.s

His hands tightened around you, his knee coming between your legs as you leaned against him, his fingers tracing shapes under the waistline of your pants.

“Do you want to stop?” his voice was strained, his mind distracted by the way you were making him feel. Despite that, he already knew your answer.

Daniel gently took your face in his hands when you didn’t say anything in return, his eyes dark and heavy and everything you were searching for. “y/n.”

His thumbs stroked your cheek bones and you silently cursed the boy in front of you, he was too much. You shook your head, barley allowing him to hear your response. “No.”

right now i wanna see it all

i don't wanna cool off

He smiled-and you knew he was trying to keep it small- before licking his lips and pulling you back into him.

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The sun was too bright through the curtains, it’s rays flitting across your face and pulling you into consciousness. The room was warm and soft, mimicking the skin you were pressed so tightly against. You could feel his hold on you, his arms around your waist from behind, his head tucked into the junction between your neck and shoulder, his hair flopping onto your cheek. For a moment, you let yourself enjoy it. You let yourself believe it could stay like this, but all too soon your moment was over.

The cold of the open air was an unwelcome change from the comfort of the heavy duvet, as was the scowl that had crawled onto Daniel’s face as a result of your absence. He was still so beautiful.

so let's cross the lines we lost

right now i wanna see it all

“Mmm, y/n, baby, c’m back.”

It was too much. He was too much. Waking up in his bed after a night of whispers and moans of the others name was too much. You couldn’t handle it anymore.

In a rush you threw on your clothes, trying desperately to keep the tears in your eyes from falling onto his hardwood floor.

He must have heard the small whimper leave your mouth, because the next thing you knew he was crawling over the bed, reaching for you.

“y/n/n…” you hated how much you loved his groggy voice.

Your voice was frail, and you chided yourself for it. “Don’t Daniel.”

He sat up, his hands falling into his blanket-covered lap. “Don’t what?”

You turned to him, trying your best to keep your composure. “Don’t say my name like that. I can’t do this anymore. I can't sleep with you and then act like it means nothing. I can’t wake up in your bed, in your arms anymore.” You let out a plaintive exhale, and Daniel’s face twisted into a doleful expression. “If I can’t have all of you, then I can’t have any of you.”

“Why does it have to mean nothing?” his question surprised you.

you were right on the border

give me all of this

He took your confused look as an invitation to continue. “I know we’ve talked about why we can’t really be in a real relationship, but it shouldn’t matter that we work together, it shouldn’t matter that it’s ‘against policy’ or whatever the fuck. I can’t keep pretending I’m not falling for you y/n.”

He fell back onto the pillows, you couldn’t move.

“If you can’t do it anymore, neither can I.”

Your heart dropped into your chest at those words. “Fine.” you spat back.

Daniel was sitting up now, completely frozen in his spot, watching you walk out of his bedroom. “So what? That’s it? You're just leaving?”

You stopped and spun around, your expression reading nothing less than exasperated. “What do you want me to do Daniel? Stay here? Come back and fuck you again just to leave after? I’m sick of it, I can’t pretend like I’m not hurting.”

“I want you to stay for God’s sake! I want you to be with me. Jesus.” he fell back again, his hands rubbing down his face.

“Daniel, we’re right on the border here. I don’t know what to do.” you were quiet, starting to lose the fire that had been fueling this fight.

give me all of you

not falling in

“Just give me all of you, like you said. You said you can’t have half of me anymore, and I want all of you y/n, I need all of you.”

You looked at him, lips parted, hands barely reaching out for him.

“C’mon, cross the border, please.”

So you did, and you kissed him.

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