#cw triggering

Jasper’s head turned to the door, both of us catching Alice’s scent as she poked her head through the door. “Please explain to me what’s going on.” “What did you see?” Jasper demanded. His hands were cradled around me, my head on his chest. I felt the weight of the vision crushing down on me. Threatening to pull me back in. Jasper’s arms were the only thing tethering me down. Alice was at our side at once. I felt her hands touch my face. “It was like she disappeared. I couldn’t see her future anymore, and then suddenly I could.” I peeked through my lashes seeing her bewildered face. The pressure was fading and just as it completely slipped away Alice breathed a sigh of relief. “You’re clear as day now. Do you want to tell me what happened?”  I explained everything. From the silence in the vision that surrounded me, making me feel absolutely alone in the world, to the dark figure that abducted me. Alice couldn’t make sense of it either. The only thing we could do was bring it to the rest of our family. Maybe they could form an explanation. We all gathered in the living room, all of us finding our own places to listen. Jasper of course was as close to my side as possible in case whatever it was happened again. The pain it caused me scared the hell out of him. “Maybe it’s an addition to the gifts you already possess.” Carlisle chimed into the conversation. He was sat on the couch in the middle of the room, next to Edward and Bella. Esme stood at his side, concern on her face as well. Everyone seemed on edge by what I had experienced. What if what I saw was true. What if a vampire somewhere really did kidnap me? Why did he just abandon me? Was he doing this to others?  “Gifts can grow overtime.” Bella added. “Or quickly like in my experience. It took me no time at all to pull my shield down for Edward to read my thoughts. Now I can turn it on and off like a switch.”  Alice and Edward also added how their gifts developed over time. In the beginning the visions were blurry for Alice, becoming clearer over time. Edward’s experience was similar in how clear the thoughts came to him.  “So let’s get this straight.” I finally spoke. Everyone turned to me as I had been quiet for most of the conversation. I only explained what I could and Alice and Jasper took over from there. “I can make decisions knowing if the outcome will be good or bad, like an overwhelming gut feeling and I know people before they even say hello. Now suddenly I have visions. Isn’t that kind of a jump. I mean what does that have to do with what I could already do?” Emmett spoke up from the corner of the room. “Maybe it’s a defense mechanism.” He shrugged, Rosalie at his side shook her head in agreement. Jasper looked right at Emmett like he had the perfect answer. “That actually makes perfect sense.” He agreed. “How so?” I added, still not understanding where they gathered this from. Jasper turned to me. “Do you remember how you just knew to come here? It was like out of anywhere in the world this is where you belonged the most. And how you also knew you could trust me? You knew you’d be safe.” “Or when you hunted for the first time. That’s definitely not an instinct we are born with.” Carlisle added. “I think the thing that it all has in common is keeping you safe. Keeping you on the right track.” “Explains why I also can’t read your thoughts. You’re keeping yourself safe.” Edward replied.  They all bounced memories back in forth, but they weren’t getting the point. I felt danger. It screamed inside of me telling me to run and hide. I felt the emotions boiling inside of me all over again and it all came pouring out of me before I could try and stop it. “Still doesn’t explain this vision though. Something doesn’t feel right. I mean I don’t even know my own name and I suddenly get this traumatic vision of being abducted? I can’t possibly see how this is supposed to keep me safe. I’m supposed to be indestructible, yet I can’t even begin to explain how terrifying this man was. He was an absolute monster. ” My voice was higher now. I was almost shouting. My mind was going too fast, my head felt heavy again. Why now? How was seeing him keeping me safe now? Jasper held me again as he too felt the emotions in me, protecting me from snapping like newborns do. That’s when I felt it coming for me. That invisible pulling feeling. I felt myself slipping to the floor. Reality began breaking.  Where was I? Everything was dark, my vision not picking up anything recognizable. I felt the ground underneath me. Was I outside? I felt around feeling what could only be the forest floor. It was clearly night time. I must have been deep in the forest because I couldn’t even make out a trace of the moon. Then I felt what I could only explain as stone above me. It moved and I felt a cold, hard hand grab my face. I could feel fear deep in my stomach freezing my whole body. I couldn’t move, couldn’t scream, tears welled in my eyes. I tried to see this person, but it was so dark I couldn’t make out anything. I felt this person who had a hold on me breathe down my neck. So many scenarios ran through my head. I was going to die here wasn’t I? Would anyone find my body? I tried to remember who would miss me, but my mind was blank. Did I have parents? Friends? I couldn’t think. All I could focus on was the weight of this person crushing me to the ground. Holding me in place. Whatever was going to happen, I just wanted it to be over. Then I felt a sharp feeling burrow deep into my neck. That was when I started screaming. I had never felt such pain in my life, this I knew. Had I been stabbed? Did they bite me? The deep feeling was removed now, but in it’s place was a hot feeling, growing hotter. Too hot. I felt like my neck was being lit on fire and all I could do was thrash on the ground. I screamed and screamed until my voice gave out as I felt the fire spread throughout my body. It was slow and agonizing. This stranger was torturing me. Though I could not feel them on me anymore as I continued thrashing on the ground, the only thing I could conclude was that he was setting me on fire. I was absolutely right, I was going to die here. My heart was racing now, so fast I couldn’t make sense of it. Maybe it was the adrenaline. The pain was so severe, how had I not passed out already? How could I not smell the smoke. I remembered all the tv shows and movies I had seen where people had been burned. Didn’t they explain experiencing those things. My whole body was on fire now and I was awake for all of it. I didn’t know if anyone could hear me, but I was pleading for death now, begging for this stranger to put me out of my misery. I didn’t want to feel. I didn’t want to be alive. “Make it stop, make it stop, make it stop.” I kept repeating over and over again. Whether outloud or in my head, I didn’t care. “Hey you’re okay!” I felt hands shaking me hard. I realized now I was saying it out loud now. Was the stranger patronizing me now? If I was on fire how were they able to touch me? I finally realized I couldn’t feel any flames. I opened my eyes and only saw Jasper’s face above me as I lied on the floor. He was shaking me to pull me out of it. I looked around, seeing everyone’s faces now. They were all sitting or standing as I had remembered. By now they were shocked, terror on all their faces. I was on my feet in the fraction of a second, crouched against the wall in a defensive position. I was breathing fast, but I knew now I didn’t need to. I wasn’t trapped in the flames any longer. “burning” Is all I could get out in a whisper.  “You’re okay.” Jasper repeated. He was in front of me now, pulling me up to my feet. Sending waves of relaxation that took the pain away. I looked over his shoulder. Everyone was staring at me waiting for an answer. I was calm now so I let Jasper let me go and began to explain the vision this time.  “That must have been your transformation.” Carlisle concluded. “It’s exactly like what you’re explaining.” A pressure still loomed over me, the faintest feeling of heat still clinging to me, but I could feel it slipping.  I looked over at Edward who was looking up at Alice’s face. She was frozen now, looking off into the distance. What was she seeing? It wasn’t good from what I could tell just by who concerned Edward was, and how he held Bella tighter to him. “What is it?” I demanded. I needed answers now. Edward turned to me. “She’s seeing the man you told us about. I don’t recognize him.” We were all looking at them both now. This all happened in only a minute, but the anticipation made it feel like forever.  Alice snapped out of it suddenly, finding my face. “He went back to the place that he left you and he’s caught your scent. He’ll be here tonight.”