#curatorialship

There were plenty moments with lack of sleep, anxiety, and even guilt, especially when unpleasant things had occured. As part of the organizing commitee, it’s another challenge to focus on the working group discussion. Especially, when it was being held in Jogja, part of schedule in which I was fully responsible for. In one of the working group session, I was joining the discussion in the last 10 minutes because I spent an hour for rearrange the bus schedule for Borobudur trip and together with Barto, we tried to find Patrick who had change his room without our knowledge.

So, the practice of organizing including hosting, facilitating and hospitality, are filled with discomforts. It is an act of giving, rather than getting. Although, copying Mrazek’s words, the experience of organizing also made me feel nostalgic. The nostalgia was produced not because of what I got during the assembly, but because of the possibilities that might had been happen to the participants and it was happened because of my role as one of the co-organizer. I’m longing for my constant act of giving which might enable others to gain something.

Why am I longing for this giving? Perhaps because through giving, I was gaining a sense of purpose and urgency as a person. Or perhaps because it’s an important act to form virtues? Can we use this practice of giving and nurturing as modalities in curatorialship?