#ctc rian

Baby is beyond heartbroken

His world was already turned upside down when you lost your memory

But at least then he still had hope that you would remember

He’d spend hours dreaming that you’d wake up with all of your memories intact and you’d remember him

Afterwards you’d go back to how you were

Stealing kisses, making plans for the future…..

But that was all it was…a dream

He was sooo happy for you when your memories returned

It had been hard to see you since the attack

There was no love in those eyes anymore…..not towards him at least

He watched as you fell in love with the ambassador

It was breaking him apart

As much as he’d hoped, dreamed, wished upon every star in the night sky that you’d still love him, he knew deep down that it might not happen

He loved seeing you so happy, especially after enduring so much pain

But it was hard, so hard to watch as you did the things you’d used to do with him, with someone else

The stolen kisses, secretive glances when you thought nobody was watching, laughing together over some inside joke

He wanted to scream and cry

He wanted to march up to the gates of Eonia and demand an explanation as to why this was happening

But he didn’t

Instead he smiled and laughed

Reassured you that there were no hard feelings and that he would support you no matter what

He’d listen to you talk about the ambassador and he would ask questions in turn

He willed himself to keep the pain off his face as he watched you two together

After your coronation he went back to Castile

He didn’t want to leave but he couldn’t stay there, not right now

He tries his best to move on but it takes a long long time

Never truly gets over you

He caries so much guilt around for the rest of his life as he blames himself for what happened