#csm self insert

YEAHHHH my girls I love 'em. Wishi the general insert/sona who encompass most of my inserts because of lore. Gabi who is both an insert, persona, and also legitimately just me but with a white ring in my eyes for lore reasons. Rye who is only ONE of my Sonic inserts (the other one is a secret 😋 lmao) and who also got a redesign. As you can see. Said goodbye to the brown and hello to the black :3c

Based off this image ^-^ but I. Took a few liberties ♡♡

So, after being found by Makima:

She is added to the team briefly after Denji and Power. I'm currently undecided at which point she should enter the story; I'm thinking about prior to Chapter 14.

Makima helps her find a place (up until this point, she's been homeless since becoming a vampire) near Aki's apartment, encouraging her to make friends. She suggests Denji could use a friend since he's similar to her (not fully human, rough background).

Ashuta believes that since she'll be on a team of devils and humans, she would be more likely to make friends since they should be more accepting, right? She shows up to the Hayakawa apartment with some food, trying to introduce herself as a new member of the team (and not disclosing herself as a vampire yet- Power can tell, but doesn't care enough to point it out).

Denji thinks at first she's friendly, but a bit too polite and wonders how someone like her got chosen by Makima. Power doesn't initially feel strongly about her either way, though she's delighted to meet Meowy.

Aki thinks she's polite (and finally someone easy for him to get along with on his squad), but questions why she became a devil hunter after a couple hours of them hanging out. She briefly explains that she's a vampire, and that her life was ruined by the Vampire Devil. Aki's tone quickly changes knowing she's not human, and the night is sort of abruptly ended.

CHAPTER 14:

She's integrated into the group with Chapter 14's mission in the hotel being her first (could be retconned later.)

She's a bit hurt with the talk of Aki and Arai not trusting "non-humans" and saying they don't have human rights, so she's quick to become very quiet since she assumed Makima's team of devils and humans meant she was more likely to be accepted.

Himeno can quickly tell that she looks upset and comes over to strike up a conversation, and the two make small talk throughout the mission. She tells her to not mind Aki, that he's just had bad experiences with devils. Ashuta protests that she's not a devil, but a devil makes an appearance before Himeno can respond.

Himeno discusses with Aki later in the mission that she's surprised Ashuta is so conscientious for a vampire- Aki shrugs and believes it's her being deceptive. Himeno goes to suggest he give Ashuta a chance.

CHAPTER 15:

Ashuta does bond a bit with Denji over the mission, both of them asking each other questions about their respective species ("So are you allergic to garlic?" and "Does it hurt when your chainsaws come out?")

CHAPTER 16:

In hopes of winning Aki's approval, Ashuta offers to help Aki hunt for the devil. She explains that since vampires don't really need to sleep much, she could help him all he wants.

Aki, unimpressed, asks why she's so hellbent on trying to please him when he doesn't care about wether she lives or dies as a non-human.

CHAPTER 18:

In the hysteria of facing the eternity devil, Ashuta finally snaps at Kobeni after trying to keep everyone calm the entire mission, telling her she's going to be a shit devil hunter if she freaks out at the slightest inconvenience. Kobeni yells back that it was easy for her to say, that she'd been calm and collected the entire mission because she can't die. Ashuta yells at her that pussying out and turning on her teammates made it more likely for all of them to die, and to shut the fuck up and help if she was going to stay a devil hunter. It certainly doesn't make Kobeni like her, but it shuts her up.

CHAPTER 20:

Ashuta joins the newbie welcome party. Denji questions how she can eat if she's a vampire, and she shrugs and explains that it's the same way devils eat- the only difference is human food isn't of nutritional substance to her and she doesn't retain any energy from it, she eats it for nostalgia purposes and the taste.

Ashuta lightens up when Makima joins the party, glad to see someone familiar- she considers Makima a friend, being the first person who was nice to her.

During the party, Makima asks Aki how Ashuta's first mission was, and wether she had done satisfactory. Aki admits that she did well, and Ashuta can't help but be a little happy at his approval.

As the night progresses, she gets drunk enough where she feels less afraid to approach Aki again. The two actually end up talking some. While drunk, Aki apologizes for the way that he had regarded her earlier in the night, and that she handled her first mission well, remaining composed in such a stressful situation .

How the "revenge" and backfiring play out:

So we know already that Makima doesn't give a shit about Ashuta, but Ashuta considers her a close friend, probably up there with Denji and Power or so but not as close as Aki (no one is as close to her as Aki is, over time).

When Aki is killed, Ashuta can't cope and confides in Makima, since she believes Makima has surely lost someone she cares about before, right? She tells Makima how she was closer to him than anyone in the world. How all she wanted was to see him live at peace. How she would have done anything to stop what happened to him. Even feels safe enough to tell Makima that she was in love with him.

Makima, of course, this whole time has seen this as an opportunity to kill Ashuta. She's ripped away Aki already and is about to kill Power, why not take away Ashuta? Better yet, why not teach/control her to hate Denji so Denji has to kill yet another one of his friends?

I haven't planned the dialogue yet, but Makima says something that basically lets Ashuta put two and two together.

Not much bothers Ashuta, but when in extreme emotional distress, she loses her shit and acts more like what you'd see with a horror movie vampire. The wool is ripped off from Ashuta's eyes at once, and she realizes that Makima was never her friend, that she's not what she seems, and that Aki is dead and it's her fault. Makima calmly walks around the room as Ashuta breaks down, becoming more and more dismissive as Ashuta sinks into more and more disbelief.

When Makima turns her back, Ashuta immediately leaps at her in attempt to tear her apart, wanting her to feel every second of it in revenge for Aki. Makima, of course, is not fazed by this at all and immediately beats the shit out of Ashuta within an inch of her life.

As Ashuta's basically choking on her own blood, Makima mocks Ashuta, explaining that she's the Control Devil. Except the sad part is she never even had to use her devil powers on Ashuta- Ashuta was so desperate for love and a friend that all Makima had to do was tolerate her presence to win Ashuta's loyalty.

Makima muses that it was very amusing getting to know Ashuta- that she was such a simple, loyal dog- and it's such a shame that she has to do this.

From here, I can't decide if Makima simply puts Ashuta under her Control Devil powers so she's completely brainwashed, or just fully kills her so Ashuta regenerates comes back as a blank slate.