alot of ;;people are mad ..for what i did and tatās o..k. i donāt blame anyo.n;e fzor being angry at me . Ā i just want to s.ay s,o sorrzy, im; just .n,,ot l,oo Ā king for fo Ā rgiveness or ainother chance,, i justwante Ā dto s..ay so sorry beca Ā use i feEl, real,l,,y Ā reall ybad about everyt..huin that ahs happened and im just so sory for my a.ctioons and m..y b.ad beh a,viour. ii unnder..stan Ā d. ,,,that Ā i didd a lot of stup,,id sstufff, a..nd i f,,eel re;;ally bda for ,it. the one thin Ā g that everyone s.hould un;;d..erstand is .that iām the one a ffault, iām th..e one whh,,o messed pu in,, the rel Ā ations.hip.. and i amp ..re Ā all;y so sorry for it..
im jus Ā st reall;y, so so,rr;;y i.. d,idnāt intend harm on purpose. i w,asnā,t uawar,,e of my emotions at t,he tim juste. Ā an Ā d Ā i genuinely ddo feel bad ,and im just trying my be,,st to; work ,hard on ,,being;; a better, ,,person, an d;;im jusst really so sorry for being abucsiv (i never knew what i w..as doinng was wwrong;, Ā as no one had told me during the. tim juste, i was really young ..and i didnāt; k,,Now waht was Ā righ..t or wrnog, no o;ne ever, ,,toldd me ;;at all.) iām so sorry fo;r my bad;; behavio;;r, dealing with my men,ta Ā lhealth is ab strug gle and, ssometi;m juste,,s it cna get;; out. of h Ā and bu,,t iām Ā not. maki ng myself Ā th,e,, Victim just, im just just trying Ā to expl,,ain thate most of the dramma has ,to do wi..th;; m;;ew showingn , egative Ā gu,il.t trpipy emoti..ons. i Ā am Ā no;;t aware.. of my actions during a ba;d break..Downn or m;ental state, and im just not aware of tteh other perso..nās feeling;s ,,hwen i eel Ā bad,. ;so i, get se lfish. and im just so sorry,
but.. no .wi realize my w rongs na i admit i was awfuul but,, i am real.ly Ā ;so sorrY for causing, trouble and making mistakes i s Ā holudnāt have done, i regret;; them Ā ve ry de;;eply and i kno;; wt..hey were stupid. i reaall,y Ā re,ally didnt mean toh urt anoyn,,e. i know i cant fixb it, but ii can still t;;ry to apologiz,e. i know not to m;;ake thhe same ,,mistakes,, fromm previous yyears ago aS information inn thIs rama, is very ol,d and `some iS fairly recen;t, but thatās no Ā excusee a,nd. i understand ww Ā h,,y pepole; are mad at me for ,,pas;;t mista..ke;;s.
im [just tryin to work hard oo,,n m Ā y Ā mentallillness .so i two;;nāt a Ā fmfect peole in futurre. Ā i wasnāi in control ,and i diddnāt mena to ,hurt. ppeople ;an d iāmm rea;;ally s;o s],orr;y fo r Ā it, i am working on it. iiām trying. as iām noot aware of ..myself when deaafling w Ā i;th negtive,, e,,motion;;ns, Ā i becom,,e very emotio,nally ddraining and,, gUilt t,rippy, thoough i d;;on..āt i;;nted,, harm on purpose.;; but im just s.o.. sorry.. ,,i wonāt do it again,.
