#creativeintelligencearts

A TRUTH: we are co-creating the world as we want it. The "we" in this case are both those with progressive minds and ideas as well as those with less than progressive minds and ideas (often driven by fear) the universe is begging for balance that's the science of the Aquarian age. It's the age of knowing transitioning from believing (Pisces) the real life struggle in-between is often your karmic journey: your highest self is hard at work creating a reality for you to make a conscious choice to take responsibility and make fearless choices to realize your truth. Be patent with yourself and others. The dark side of being one who knows is being arrogant and over zealous. Learn your lessons an hold space for others to do the same. Stay spiritually hydrated/grounded. Water always finds its own level and its those who resist that law and live in fear of expansion/hydration that to often drown normalizing there resistance to change and calling it the "last days" as if they can pinpoint the first... Ok, I trust you get my drift.... ONE -erwin thomas

From the heart and mind of Shontina Vernon:

To my beloved men (brothers, uncles, cousins, lovers, friends, acquaintances, and strangers alike) ------ One of the greatest gifts of my visit to Cuba was seeing men who could weep openly. Who could hold one another in a warm embrace without having their masculinity questioned. This balance of the feminine in them left me speechless. I hadn't even known how much I missed it. Seeing and hearing their expressions of love toward each other warmed me. I wept, at their weeping – for me, for us…for America and its politics fueled by a culture of aggression. I wept for the softness we are all so in need of. Women need to see it in you. It is your portal to us. You need to see it in yourselves. It is a gateway to your humanity – to something compassionate and yielding. Your misdirected anger at women and their bodies, your incessant conquering o'er the land spring from this – your inability to see that you cannot build an entire manhood on strength and force. It is incomplete and one-sided. And it robs all of us from some of the very best you have to offer. You are missed; the whole of you. When women finally stand in solidarity and say no more, it will not be because we are separatists or feminists or any -ists. It will be because we love you, and because we have found our strength. The time is upon us all to strike the balance. ox, me

Nature is fascinatingly diverse with no known normal only a delicately held balance on a quest for expansion. A dance between chaos and order and a  filled with relationship and endless sacrifice and my own nature isn't much different.  No bad or good but thought makes it so.

"I fear that at some point something I do or don't do, share or choose not to share will activate in you a pain based on Romantic expectation or past injury. Then, it would be seen as natural to speak badly of me, grow jealous of my independence or angry at my boundaries (emotional, physical or other) demanding more of some ambiguous emotionally based ever changing need.  Blame me for being me or judge me because I don't fulfill your desires or expectations.  Then label me  rude for not wanting to play the bad guy in your drama. Slowly being to resent me though never brave enough to communicate it with words. Then i would again be labeled as inattentive, distant and or not present." 

I was a bit shocked at how fluidly my response came. In fact it was communicated with my thumbs through text. After getting over my own response time i had to recognized that I in fact was responding or at least voicing my previous pains. Telling on myself... The experiences of past relationships.. And as change is the only constant; my responsibility is to now forgive myself for holding on to these fears and let the images and expectations that come with them go. I must now trust that there are others in the ocean of life that will have the emotional maturity to allow me to be who I am and be able to communicate how be being me affects them without emotional finger pointing and insecure blame or a hunger to fix. I also recognized that the only way that this could have ever been a reality for me is because I too have been guilty of doing the same.  This too, i must forgive myself for.  Knowing that next time I will be able to recognized this behavior in myself and another without judgement and make a new choice. Today is a beautiful day perfect for house cleaning and meditation.  

I wasn't expecting the interpersonal on day 2 of the 31day blogging but it fits in the natural order of things.