#creativebrains

I’ve got a typical creative mind. It’s led me on some ups and downs through my 30 years (ugh, how am I 30?) Its amazing and abysmal at the same time.

My very short attention span when doing day-to-day tasks is well known. I don’t speak on the phone often because I like to do two, three, four things at once, which is hard when you’re holding a phone. Narrow down and focus on a conversation while I’m trying to join paperclips? No thanks.

The only time I really focus or feel a sense of contentment is when I’m drawing or making something. My head is constantly full. Full of ideas, full of insecurity, full of things I should be doing. I would class myself as overly philosophical, over-thinking everything, for better or worse. During a particular rough patch I wrote down that I felt like my thinking was like an infinite amount of Russian babushka dolls. Quite full-on, but now I see it as a sign of being overwhelmed.

I’m constantly trying to ‘find myself’, and at 30, I’m getting there, slowly. I genuinely thought I had some kind of mental illness. Does anybody else think and feel like I do? The chances are, yeah you idiot of course, but I felt a bit alone.

Then I came across the ’16 personalities’ theory. You take the test, you read a load of info about what ‘type’ you are. I’m an INFP-T if that interests anybody. I don’t know how accurate this theory is but it hit a nerve…a happy nerve? and it went some way in to making me understand why I’m like I am. 

So if the theory is legit then great, but if it’s just a shallow ploy to exploit people I’m gonna just pretend that isn’t the case and walk off thinking I know myself better.

Here’s the link for anyone wanting to do the test…