#creative updates

in order to stop putting myself through that cycle of drafting and querying that started to look a bunch like self-harm, I set myself on a hiatus from even thinking about it

i miss blorbos the first so much 😭🤩😭🤩

it's a science fantasy that makes FEALTY look fucking normal and includes some of my greatest hits like:

✨ Gender fuck ✨ Characters who are living shields & living weapons ✨ Not getting the thing you spent your whole life working towards ✨ Magic + tech ✨ A sarcastic kind of grimdark that's of the "laughing so you don't cry variety" ✨ White hair

this isn't anything remotely similar to a new project announcement, it's just, i like that my brain is freed

I took that self-imposed hiatus & other works in progress came out of it (seriously, I have almost three books out in those two years)

the new works are way more aligned with who I want to be as a creative than the things I thought those stories needed to be

I haven't done one of these in about two years. But I thought that recently my creative process has been so chaotic that even I have trouble keeping up with it so it might be a good idea to share what I'm currently working on. That way I could get a clearer picture of how to structure my work flow and everyone would have an easier time keeping up with my projects.

I think the first thing that everyone wants to hear about is the Winx rewrite. Now the good news is that I managed to structure chapter 3 but I still have a lot to write for it and I need to rework some of what I've already written. I might have just had an idea of how to make the beginning of chapter 4 work so much smoother than how I had initially planned it, though, so I'm definitely excited.

Another big thing that I need to address is my 200 followers celebration from last year. If you don't remember it... I can't say the same. I have 6 more requests and I have a starting point on 5 of them. 3 are almost fully outlined. I totally plan on finishing them and I'm hoping to get that done soon.

Something that I haven't talked about until now is my reviewing and ranking of all Gravity Falls episodes. I started writing those out as Tumblr posts but then decided to actually try to make them into YouTube videos. So far I have written out half the episodes (just finished season 1) but I haven't started on making the videos at all. Also, I started this project in April... 2021. I had two periods of getting stuck on episodes for months at a time, paralyzed by perfectionism and self-doubt. I really hope I will have an easier time with season 2 and will be able to get that done with time to spare by the end of the year.

I've also had an idea of doing a 31 prompts thing since January last year and, naturally, that has become way more complicated than I originally planned it to be. All chapters are now connected in one big story and I need to figure out the 4 remaining chapters and tighten the concepts of the ones I already have. The plan is for the chapters to be relatively short but when do I ever stick to the plan?

I'm trying to also write other fanfics that I've come up with so everything is going slowly.

I somehow ended up writing Erendor x Samara full-on smut. What is going on?

Of course, my brain can't comprehend passing up on Kinktober so I'm going to also have to look into that soon if I want to get anything done on time.

And last but, unfortunately, not least, I still have my final final exam to take for my bachelor's degree because I couldn't force myself to take it now in July since my brain was already fried from all the other exams I did take. So that will also be a huge energy-consumer in September.

Damn, I don’t have a pic for this.

Let’s start with an official update on the requests (as opposed to the unofficial one I gave yesterday) and work our way from there:

- I have not started writing any of the requests but I have a loose structure for 2 of them. Why am I working so slowly? Because a) I got distracted with the Sparks of Life bachelorette party (which will be discussed below) and b) because the plot syndrome happened again. Yep, I packed plot into the smut again so yay for that! I don’t even know what to say about it except that this is going to take some time especially because one of these is already getting out of hand and I don’t even have a solid outline for it yet. Here’s what I have without giving spoilers for the prompts or the prompters:

Number 36 is the one that is getting out of hand and is now a part of the overarching plot of the Domme AU so I have to see where this is going and how to get it there. I have also managed to tie it in with one of my ideas for Kinktober. (Is it time to announce that already? Well, I just did.)

Number 33 is a challenge I have decided to give a try and I have drafted a basic idea for the direction of it but there are still quite a few technicalities to figure out that I simply haven’t had the time to look at thanks to all the other places my focus has been.

- I have also found myself getting ideas for a few prompts that have not been requested so I might work on those too but I will try to do the requests first and then go for my picks. Also, feel free to send me more prompts but keep in mind that it will take me some time to work my way through them since plot always insists on taking over and then it’s thousands of words that I need to deal with.

- Continuing with the Domme AU because this segues into it. I was actually having a burst of motivation to finally sit down and draft the backstories of Marion, Oritel, Faragonda and Hagen but that was intercepted by my out-of-the-blue motivation for Sparks of Life and I still haven’t managed to get to it. I am also dying to write chapter 5 because I have the opening scene figured out since March but in a fun turn of events that is exactly the thing that is causing my blockage with this chapter for some unknown reason. So until I can figure that out, I will try to stick to the prompts and then my ideas for Kinktober. But damn if I don’t want to write chapter 5 and then chapter six because things are starting to get real and there is also backstory to be revealed! I am getting hyped for all of it and I wish I could do everything all at once. Hopefully, that will motivate me to work!

- Now for the Sparks of Life bachelorette party - I am simply dying to write this! As revealed earlier, they are playing a Truth or Truth game (Griffin banned dares because she is not feeling up for getting arrested right before her wedding) with a nsfw nature. The thing I am most excited about is getting to build the characters and their backgrounds and connections to one another through the game as this is going to be emotional as hell despite the matter of the questions. All six of them will have at least one moment when they’re on the verge of tears (if not more) and someone may even get to cry a little. I still haven’t figured out that part. I am just excited about all the stuff that I have figured out because it is so beautiful to watch them bond in a most untypical fashion. Oh, I really want to write this! Especially the last few questions that definitely needed a new perspective to fall into place but now that they have it is going to be absolutely precious. I should really get to writing this instead of rambling about how excited I am about it.

- I finally got some decent thoughts and dialogue for a continuation of The End of Never. However, it is not going to be the conversation between the Trix that I am not yet sure if I will ever write. It is more about how Griffin and Valtor and Darcy are adapting to the new realities of having a family and how Griffin and Valtor are going to continue their own relationship after all the revelations in part one. I have just a little bit right now so this is by no means something I will work on in the near future. And I reserve every right to pull the plug if I feel tired of this verse and just not continue it at all. The first part was so tiring that even if I am happy with the way it turned out, I don’t know if I could find enough worth in going through the same things with more parts.

- I have had quite a few thoughts for new parts in the Three Dark Crowns Fusion I had back in May. I really like where this whole thing is going as I have managed to somewhat build a story out of it. There is still more loose ends to be tied and I don’t know if it would ever be able to pass as one big story instead of just interconnected one-shots even if I have an overarching emotional plot binding them all together. I finally have some direction as to the ending of this and how to deal with the situation of the Queens. I’ve also managed to start expanding Griffin’s ties to the other characters in the series and I am quite proud of the whole situation with Faragonda I have constructed but anything more I say will be spoilers and it is not quite ready for that yet.

- The Client List AU has gained four new scenes that will probably be divided into two sequels to the one-shot it was supposed to be. The new parts will provide more insight into Griffin’s past and how that has led to all the bumps on her road to Valtor but they’re also supposed to provide the closure to her pain and free her from it so that she can finally move on with someone who truly cares about her in a way she has never felt before. It’s too beautiful for me to pass up on so I guess I am adding that on the writing queue as well. As if it’s not kilometers long already.

- For a few weeks now I have been meaning to write something that tears Griffin’s psyche completely apart in regards to her relationship with Valtor (like I did with Valtor’s in “Afterlife” from the Heaven or Hell collection) and this morning I got an idea that I thought would do that but somehow I still managed to spun it around so that it is Valtor who is getting the burnt of it again. I have left it to chill for a while until I can come back to it with some new ideas and see where it will go. I don’t think it can ever go where I was hoping it would but I am curious to see what will come of it as it has a lot of potential. (And I will have to start from square one again with the “taking apart Griffin’s psyche” thing I wanted.)

040521 – Creative Update

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An update as to where I’m at with my Sci Fi Novel and Art journal.