#crabs rambles

For example:

Lawful good: smart. finds a towel or paper towel as fast as they can and gets them to throw up onto that

Neutral good: prepares for the aftermath while it's happening. finds all the places their pet threw up later instead of waiting and watching

Chaotic good: watches it unfold and comforts pet throughout it

Lawful neutral: tries to herd their pet to a better area to throw up on

True neutral: finds someone to help them clean it up

Chaotic neutral: panics. tries to stop it somehow

Lawful evil: yeets their animal outside as soon as they start gagging

Neutral evil: let's it happen and gets someone else to clean it up

In Inevitable, it seems like Paul is giving hints that he's just pretending to be controlled in order to survive (unlikely but possible), or alternatively, that the real Paul, his spirit in other words, is trapped inside him somewhere while still being infected

For example:

"What if I told you I made it

And this is the life that I chose?

Would you even believe it, Emma?

Do you believe in ghosts?"

The keyword is chose. I'm fairly sure that if Paul had survived the grenade, he wouldn't have decided to just... throw that all away. He was considering it in Let It Out, but ultimately broke free. It's either he died and was infected after Let It Out (with some weird thing happening where his ghost is still in there that I'll explain in a bit), or he decided after surviving the grenade to at least pretend to be infected to survive.

As for the whole ghost theory-

The spirit, the one thing that could fight back (as seen in Let It Out) being gone is ideal to infect someone. So why would infected Paul imply he's almost like a ghost? It couldnt be because he survived the grenade- no matter how he died, the blue shit would've "brought him back to life". So is it instead Paul instead trying to tell Emma his spirit is still in there, trying to fight back? Or is it just a throwaway line I'm reading too much into?

I believe that the blue shit accesses only what is physical- like the brain. So the reason why it may seem like the person, or their soul, is still in their infected body (like in Not Your Seed) besides them being dead is because the blue shit has access to their memories and references them when it wants to. In reality, the person isnt really there. It's just the blue shit going off of previous memories. So in other words- an infected individuals spirit is gone, even if it may seem like it.

The mentioning of ghosts by infected Paul is significant- it seems to hint that Paul's ghost is still somewhere in there for whatever reason.

"What if the only choice is

You have to sing to survive?"

I feel like these lines are implying Paul is just trying to survive until he can break away- untim his spirit can take over his infected body.

but you were considered stupid by all the other kids if you couldn't read fast enough so I'd always read insanely fast so I wouldn't look dumb even tho in the end I never retained anything from what I read

yet I still did this each time because I didn't want to be seen as stupid

the american school system is learning how to look smart and skillful in front of your peers without actually reaping the benefits of either because you're secretly none of those things

its faking it til you make it babbyyyy

its 2am