#courtofclouds

First of all, you seem like such a kind person. I love it ❤

Secondly, I saw that your personal reading list is quite long right now, but I decided to give it a try! I believe I will receive the reading at the right time 😌

My initials are GM and my sun sign is gemini. I request a message for me from my FS 🏞 🌃

disclaimer: I'm really sorry for the late reply. I'm back now and I will try to finish the reading requests in my inbox! Fyi, I will try to keep my readings shorter, so that I can get more readings done. I still hope you enjoy the reading nevertheless.

𝐀 𝐌𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐅𝐒

Life is full of unexpected changes and ups and downs, and love is no different. I’m truly sorry. I have been sneaky in the past. Instead of facing this connection head on I deceived you and myself. I resisted the necessary change for too long and the universe decided to intervene. Now, I’m feeling the consequences of my actions. My life is out of balance, I’m getting pulled in multiple directions (finance, career, family, health … ) and I try to manage everything at the same time somehow. It’s so overwhelming… I want to tell you how hard it is on me right now but... I don’t have any right to do that because you had it worse … and it's all my fault.

I really didn’t see this coming. The commitment I have with you is getting tested by the universe and I know I have to make adjustments and put more effort or even make a sacrifice in order to remain together. I’m reflecting on my intentions and on where I want to stand in all of this. Learning to prioritize these things for a healthy outcome. More often than not, I pretend that everything is OK but to be honest, not being able to see you is hurting me so much and I get so freaking jealous just imagining you being with someone else. I know I have to stop acting like a lone wolf and stop blocking you out of my life… I always had so many conflicts and demands on me that I’ve ended up neglecting you and this connection. I can understand if you’ve started resenting me because you felt like I’ve taken you for granted all this time. I am really sorry but even now I’m not ready… yet.

I know that all of this is a part of a huge transformative process in my life. It’s like I’m shedding my old skin (my ego and pride) right now to grow into a new version of myself. It’s uncomfortable and difficult but I will go through with it to the end. I know I have the resilience and steadfastness to overcome all this even if I feel worn down. I’m working up the courage to share how I feel. I don’t want to be like this anymore, I promise you I will transform. This is the last darkness before dawn. … Just know that… I love you more than you know and I’m truly sorry.

@courtofclouds

The reading resonated. Honestly it was like this the whole time. We both made mistakes. I guess I will leave this friendship in the past.

Thank you so much for answering 🤍

I wonder how will my friendship with GH👠❄️ evolve/continue.

We had an on and off friendship for years and now we are in good terms but it doesn't feel right.

- GM 🖼🍂

Hey there, when I asked how your friendship with GH will evolve, I was given The Magician, Page of Swords, and Five of Pentacles. It sounds like this friendship could devolve into one person putting in all the work and the other metaphorically cutting you, either by argument, ignoring the other, or deciding to cut that person out, leaving both people to feel abandoned or mistreated or otherwise feeling left out in the cold socially. King of Cups is at the bottom of the deck, so I believe there's a chance to heal things, but only if both people are willing to put in the work and objectively hear the other and try to meet in the middle. I hope this helps.

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