Dear friends,
I miss you guys so much, alot things of us. Maybe it's sounds pathetic but day by day, i just trying to be realistic to face realistically. Sounds so a surrender, right? I seek to do learn that "this" is good for me. Be grateful of single little things that which i can still get. It's like mother hugs, gardening with dad's old radio, lazy monday, mom cooking, a great conv with dad etc. I still afraid to lost it all, surely. I love them. But other sad-part, i haven't yet found such good people like you, guys. Which is i feel fine around them. I feel accapted. Yeah, this is a difficult thing for me. I learned many things to understand, I have not been able to give myself time (journey). I need time to make everything works. It's hard situations that i can't leave. Basic. Maybe they're But im blessed. I trying to be self honest everyday. That everything will be okay. People come and go. That's life. No one promise to stay, and me too.
