WORST Way To Get Noticed By Your BIAS
Like... This was a month ago but just now did I have time to really sit down and write about the concert...
I don’t know if I should be happy cause my bias noticed me, or sad by the way it happened...
So in the morning of the concert it was really cold so I dressed a sleeveless shirt, then a long sleeved shirt, a leather jacket and a super warm coat on top of it all! (since I’d be spending the whole day there it would be pretty cold)
So I have this big rubber bracelet that says PRIDE in big rainbow letters! And another one just like the first one but just RAINBOW it doesn’t say anything... I have had them for the longest time... Ever since I came out to my parents... And I usually use them daily... BUT...
As it was the day of the concert I thought I wouldn’t wear them.. I can’t be sure wether they are supportive of LGBT or not, or if they are indifferent to it or not... And if they’re not I’d rather have them not know and think I’m just a simple fanboy... (even if I like to believe they are not homophobes).
After entering the venue it was so HOT because of all the lights and people inside the venue! Much different from the temperature outside...
I had left my huge warm coat on the car and changed from a long sleeved shirt to a short sleeved one! So I was only wearing a tshirt and a leather jacket... And rolled my sleeves back a bit.
I high fived Cory and he was looking in my face so everything was fine... But as soon as I high fived Kisu it was really akward...
He smiled and looked in my eyes much like he did with the other fans, but suddenly his eyes lowered to my hands.
I didn’t really understand what he was doing so I was just about to move onto Jeunguk...
But he pointed his finger to his own wrist and then waved NO with his finger to me...
I realized that by rolling my sleeves back my wrists were now visible... And I had about 7-8 cuts on my wrists from like 3 days ago...
He was looking at me really serious and I quickly pulled my sleeve back down and high fived Jeunguk...
After the group picture when I was leaving the stage I looked at him again (I mean he’s my bias afterall) and he looked at me and waved no with his finger again... I gave him a little smile and whispered sorry (tho he couldnt hear it so it was a bit stupid but I felt the need to...) he then smiled and nodded his head before I left the stage... And that was it
The thing I usually use my rubber bracelets EVERYDAY!! And they cover it!! So I totally forgot about it.... I’m too used to them not being visible....
Gosh it was so embarassing.... I felt so stupid and like... That I dissapointed him in some way... I don’t know... I just did...
I’m just glad no one else noticed but seriously it was one of the worst things thata could have happened....
NOW DONT COME AND LECTURE ME ABOUT THIS! I’ve been clean ever since then... And lecturing me won’t help! It’s not as easy as just saying don’t do it so please understand... I’m trying... Thank you :)
