continued,ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย featuring allie hamilton.
now what are you doing painting my face? ย ย don't you have better things to paint? and did you say pretty? ย ย nothing pretty about me anymore, allie, not when it's attached to someone so boneheaded. ย ย foolish, ย for ever letting you go. ย ย i look in the mirror most days and barely recognize myself. ย ย not because my soulโs darkened, ย not yet at least, ย but because of the regret and shame that i see in me for letting you go. ย ย i know you had to leave, ย know you had no choice, ย and i get that. ย ย i think iโve always understood that. ย ย iโve always wanted you to fly @cornerhaunt, ย knew you were more than living a small life in seabrook. ย ย at least for now, ย you deserve to spread your wings because maybe those wings will fly you back to me one day. ย ย maybe one day, ย but not now.
i miss you more than words can describe. there aren't enough letters in the english alphabet to invent words that can possibly describe the ache that's left in your absence. where your hands once rest in mind now hold nothing, now idle colder and less gentle. i agree, the nights are lonely without you, too. they're too quiet, allie. i once thought i loved the quiet, loved being on my own and listening to nothing, but i don't think that's entirely right.... because now i've grown desperate in silence. now i replay the sound of your voice. the sound of your laugh.
you remember so much about me. ย that detail? ย ย you really are learning a lot at sarah lawrence, aren't you? ย i wasnโt kidding when i said that your admission letters probably read like a whitman poem, ย because well, here you are ย โ ย describing these little things about me that i never knew i did. ย ย here you are making me envision myself doing them with you. ย ย to you. ย ย i am nothing special, allie. i am a common man with common thoughts and iโm leading a ย mostly ย common life. ย ย but i love you with every part of me, ย and to me thatโs more than enough. ย ย for now, ย and forever.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย yours, noah.