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I'm being a giant, twitchy ball of stress, anxieties, and nervousness. So I'm taking five minutes to write down all of the things that are wiggin' me out; then I'm gonna drink some water and stop living future pain. 

applying to PhD programs

applying to a PhD program that fits me

getting into a PhD program

getting funding

oh shit, what if i don't get in anywhere

oh shit, what if i have to move in with my parents

oh shit, oh shit, oh shit what's gonna happen to me

where I will be living in a year

what will i be doing in a year

being happy about where I will be living in a year

being happy about what I will be doing in a year

what I will do with my future

what I won't do with my future

having so many dichotomies in this list

my relationship with my partner

are my anxieties going to fuck this relationship up

man, i hope i'm okay at sexy times

thesis writing

can i actually write a good thesis

what if i don't pass my defense

what if grad school breaks me

what if i burn out before a phd

what if i disappoint the people who've invested so much time and money into me

should i let my mom keep my cat or bring him back here

will my cat be unhappy living with me

when was the last time i vacuumed

will i ever not-be slobby

how is my room already messy

paying for health insurance

paying rent

paying for both in the same month

this random white guy who's walking around in my backyard

seriously what is he doing

now he's just eating a sandwich

i don't understand why this is happening

seeming like an idiot in my classes

how the pork loin i am slow-cooking will turn out

whether or not i will be good at tai chi

being bad at tai chi

my partner being sad i am bad at tai chi

being fat

not having a sleep schedule

being in charge of things

being a disappointment

potential for failure

acne go away

not being able to twerk

Rule 1: Post the rules 

Rule 2: Answer the questions the tagger asked you, then make 11 new ones. 

Rule3: Tag 11 people and link them to your post.  ((The linking feature doesn't like me so no.))

Rule 4: Let them know they’ve been tagged. 

What’s the one thing you’ve done that you’re most proud of?

OH MY GOSH THIS IS SUCH A DEEP AND INVOLVED QUESTION WHAT DO I DO  Erm…I’m blanking.  I’m just going to pull random things out of my head.  I quoted Bilbo Baggins the other day at my siblings when they were being…little siblings.  (“If this is some clotter’s idea of a joke…I can only say…it is in very poor taste.”  If any of you were interested.  It was from the movie; I don’t remember that line in the book.  …Moving on.)  And the other day I got 14 notes on a comic I drew.  (Still immensely proud of that.)  Also I came up with an awesome idea for a birthday card.  (It’s going to be late, though, which sucks.) 

Tell me the fictional universe you would like to visit temporarily, the one you would be terrified to visit, and the one you would like to live in forever.

Temporarily…I’d love to travel with the Doctor.  I think it’d be too much for me long-term though, so I guess I’d leave him.  I wouldn’t want it to be really sad for him, though, so I’d see if we could pick up another companion before I left so he wouldn’t be as sad.  Leaving him would be so incredibly sad though!  (Thinking of Gandalf’s words of wisdom here…) 

Terrified: The Star Wars universe.  I have a headcanon where the galaxy is called the Corus galaxy (after Coruscant) and the “Force” is like this field that greatly magnifies telepathic powers which is why there are Jedi and Sith and stuff and the half-thought-out-mild-plot-bunny-half-niggling-idea that I have of like the Doctor and the Master visiting and since in my headcanon Time Lords are telepathic and in canon the TARDIS most certainly is so essentially all @#!*% breaks loose.

Live in forever:  I’d probably be happiest in Middle Earth. 

All that being said, though I could probably adjust to being anywhere, I am attached to the Silent Planet, despite all its faults.  (Assigning myself plus 200 CPS* for C.S. Lewis reference.)

If you ever started a band, what would you call it?

I THINK ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME OH MY GOSH I CAME UP WITH AN AWESOME NAME JUST TODAY (or was it  yesterday…) BUT I CAN’T REMEMBER IT. 

EDIT:  Hey, what about “Confusticate”?  (Subtle fandom references for the win.) 

Favorite board game?

Cribbage.  Or maybe checkers. 

What is a career you would hate to have and why?

The Pope.  Just today I was thinking how glad I was that I’m female and therefore can never be pope.  Imagine being the Vicar of Christ and in charge of the guidance of like 1.6 billion Catholics.  *hides under bed*  I made myself scared just thinking about it. 

What is a career (or several!) you aren’t seriously considering, but you secretly think would be really awesome?

IDK.  An astronaut.  Or a cryptographer.  Or an astrophysicist, if only for that the name sounds awesome.   

What are five names you would possibly consider for your future children? (You can say why or not, your choice!)

Xavier.  (Because St. Francis Xavier is awesome.)

Perpetua.  (Uncommon saint’s name.  Maybe not a first name but IDK Anna Perpetua is an awesome name IMO.)

Tarcisius (If you don’t love St. Tarcisius and think him an amazing role model for boys and people everywhere you are wrong.  Also maybe a middle name.  Peter Tarcisius?  Andrew Tarcisius?  Anthony Tarcisius?  Isaac Tarcisius?  Paul Tarcisius?  John Tarcisius?)

Maria Goretti (Both names together.  Maria first, Goretti middle.   Fantastic example for young ladies and people in general.)

Ignatius (BECAUSE HE’S AN AWESOME SAINT AND IGNATIUS IS A COOL NAME.)

What are your favorite letters of the alphabet? (or do you have any?)

E.  Silent e is a ninja. 

What’s something you wish you had invented?

             A famous book series. Something along the lines of LOTR maybe.

What does your alarm clock sound like?

Does my mom yelling at me to get up count?

What’s your favorite type of shoes?

Converse!  No, boots.  I actually have a pair of boots but no converse.  (But I want a pair of converse…)

  *CPS: Read LinzRW’s “The Skipper” Chapter 80 for explanation.  Actually, no, just read the whole thing.  You’ll be glad you did.  

And now, for eleven questions of mine own.  

1.  Kittens or walruses?

2.  Do you consider sporks cool?

3.  Thranduil or Legolas?  

4.  What's your favorite book?  No, check that.  Every one asks that.  Instead...where is your favorite place to read a book?

5.  What are your thoughts on free verse? Yea, nay, or ambivilent?

6.  What's your favorite word?

7.  A cool quote you'd like to share?

8.  When is the last time you ate ice cream?

9.  If there was a 10-foot-tall statue of a carrot in your yard, would you rather it be made out of glass or wood?

10.  Ehehehe.  Cheese puffs.  What is the next word/phrase that comes into your head?

11.  The PHAAAAAAAAAAAAAntom of the Opera is theeeeereee inside your...?  What do you think should go there?   I think tea, personally.  The Phantom of the Opera would look funny inside a teacup.  (You don't have to answer this if you don't want to.  It's an exceedingly strange question, even by my standards.  You can state your preference between gloves and Oxfords instead.)

  Hmmmm...I tag: 

grinsmileorlaugh

time-elleth

cornedbeefhashtag

thranduilandhisswagstag

littleladypoetry

findingaquietcorner

sirikenobi167

corpulent-wallflower

skyguyandsnips

socksaremyweakness