#coratcoret

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- Aiming for a win

- Trying not to lose

“Bentar.”

Nah, kasih aja. Mungkin dia memang butuh jeda. Butuh ruang. Butuh napas.

Mungkin, selama ini kamu terlalu ingin mewujudkan angan. Memaksakan egomu menggerogoti pikiranmu. Tak memikirkan dia yang selalu menjadi korban atas angan yang kamu egokan.

THANK YOU LOL

Oh by the way, for the other thing... It also one of the prayers I constantly pray to you throughout the years. It took a long time since seems like the person took a freakishly long turn, but you answered it in your way. For that person, and for me.

From that day on, I became a butterfly. Flying to flower over to the next one, and so on, never really stays in one place. Never really being stuck in one friend group.

I'm someone that people said had too many friends to count. They never knew, I only mingle once in a while if I'm up to it, or perhaps feeling lonely. But when the group decide to go somewhere, I'm not.

When its holiday, and every group planning their trip with each of their own circle, I'm not included in any of their plan. I'm here. Alone.

Why? Some thought that I was gonna go with the other group, some doesn't bothered that much to includes me.

But it's okay. I don't mind. I like being alone. I've been alone since the day my parents divorced. And after that highschool incident, I prefer being alone eventually. Because for me, solitude is a bliss.

Someone asked me long ago,

"Pretty sure you had or has a bestfriend once in a while do you? Maybe you just don't realize it"

"Nah, I'm good. Never really trust people anyway. I've tried back then, but both of my parents prove me wrong. Even someone whom I expect as my bestfriend back then do too"

"But maybe some of them consider you their bestfriend? I mean, if you're not being annoying, you're actually a pretty cool and fun guy to hang out with"

"*chuckle* maybe. I never really care to be honest"

"You always told me that there's always a pattern to read on people. It must include you too, there must be a pattern when you somehow open up yourself, and consider one a bestfriend. You're not that cold as you think, think about it"

I was taken a back.

After that small conversations, when I was alone, I always think about it. Human is a simple being. They can think and act differently, they can lie, but a pattern is always there. An unconscious thing people do, said, or look at, that show a truth behind every lies that exist in the world.

I laugh.

I laugh because in a way, I found a pattern.

A simple pattern.

A pattern of myself

There's always a saying when I truly believe in someone.

A simple, unnecessary, hyperbolic words.

Little that they know, when I said those words to them, even if I'm not showing or saying it, I fully trust and respect them with my all.

An when someone heard this phrase from me towards them. It means that I always be there for you no matter what. Even if time had past, and we're not talking anymore. For those people that heard these words from me, a simple text would made me jump to them as fast as I could, ready for anything, to face anything, to even jump to hell for them.

The magic words, the pattern, the way I show people that I truly care, trust, and respect them, even if they're not, is when I said a mere simple phrase to them, specifically for them :

To those who I deem more than just a friend, a bro and a sis.

I'm always watching you guys from afar, and I promise you I'll be cheering and scold you on whatever you do, like always.

I'll be the one laughing on the silliest achievement you made.

I'm happy for your next stages in life. If you ever need any help that I can provide, however long we're not talking, a single text would be enough because remember, you jump, I jump. Always.

But this time, in silence. Looks like our time is up.

Yall were there for me at my lowest. I'll march to hell just for yall

Goodluck, Assholes!