#converging

this past sunday, finn and fallie and i and our partners all had breakfast at finn's apartment like we do the first sunday of every month, then on a whim we all went home and put on our suits and trooped down to the big pool by the river to swim. we swam and watched the blue herons tend their nestlings high up in the trees over the pool. when thunder emptied the pool, we walked home laughing together in the rain. it was such a good day

my earliest memory is opening the screen door to the north florida sun room where i played and finding a greasy swirling bottomless black void. my dad thinks this is the rented house where we lived until it was destroyed by a flood along with most of our stuff and the family car

contractors are coming to replace my porch today

my dreams recently have included walls secretly filled with pink and purple bees, guinea pigs in tutus, yellow gorilla stuffies. i dreamt of the lines of dust and fragments of toys revealed when we emptied out the house where my kids grew up

boba is staying extra close lately, studying my face with concern