#cont meme

why did she never think that she was not wanted around ? when she has been told multiple times that her company is very much enjoyed and even appreciated , she still believed that she was nothing but a nuisance , and she should remove herself from the situation for both of their sake. the way he says this causes her to pause , nearly like he has reached out with his hand to catch her wrist before she had the chance to go towards the door and make her escape. it is not so much that she would be escaping , more she is saving them both from her stuttering and her awkwardness when she is attempting to speak in a way that would be even close to coherent to the common person. she starts at his words , though she is somewhat used to the manner he would exclaim things when he was speaking , and that he did not mean to be so gruff. she shrinks back and pales when he reminds her of this , glancing down and fixating on her shoes. " oh ..... r—right. i .... f—forgot. " she admits , though she did not ; she has been charting the phases of the moon , and she knew. she nibbles on her bottom lip as she shakes her head. " p—peter .... " she is hopeless , and it shows in her tone. " i .... i am t—terri—terrified. " she tells him with candor , no use hiding this. she has not changed till now , and the horrors she saw when he did ......

well , she did not expect his follow up question to be so ...... forceful. it appears he is very shocked that she even said this , and she semi flinches at his tone. ever since all that ..... happened , she was slipping more and more into her mind , and she was spending less and less time in reality and with those who are both lucid and .... sane ? “ i j—just ..... it feels like e—ever since you told me about ...... well , e—everyth—everything you informed me of , i have b—been ..... “ she shakes her head as she sighs , wrapping herself in her arms. “ it is s—silly , but the ..... the s—shadows .... it seems .... “ ‘ someone is watching me. ‘ she thinks to herself , feeling even more mad and off her head.

for once , she was in the right place mentally , and to display how much she did find him to be a friend , she returned the smile with more force behind it , her cheeks aglow with rosy hues in the form of a flush. goodness , sometimes she would redden so much she appears like she has a fever from the hues that come to the surface of her skin. for him to even think she was too good for him to be around ... the very thought ! her own hazel orbs sparkle with mirth themselves as she releases a small laugh. she maintains a hold on his hand , even swinging them back and forth a bit. “ i m—mean , it was bound to happen e—eventu—eventually. “ she shrugs ; this was so unlike her , but she was so .... happy. this , of course , but something else ; at peace ? “ oh , you must i—insist ? “ she jokes back as she looks at him. “ it does not s—seem like s—someo—someone is here to , as they s—say , pull your l—leg. “ she releases the connection they have , though she does come forward and gently settles herself down on the ground next to him as she looks up at him. “ w—well , i must i—insist that such a s—statem—statement is very much not r—rooted in any basis of f—fact. “ she responds. “ and i am s—short , so such is in c—charac—character for me , mind y—you. “

valerie lightly holds onto the pen she has in her hand , though as someone passes by the pair of them , she tenses up and squeezes it as tightly as she can , her eyes trained down on the page , even if there was not a word ascribed on the page yet. some scribbles and random lines scattered across it , nervous jerks of the utensil created by accidental touches to the page. a few snickers reach her ears as the small crowd leave them alone again , valerie sighing as she shakes her head. she phrases this to give him the option , as when she would hastily announce she had to go , he would be more concerned. unbeknownst to her , some of the ink leaked out of the pen , valerie bringing her hand up to manually sweep away her hair , a nice line now across her forehead that she was none the wiser about. “ f--finn , i do not w---wish to go , i do not , h---howev---however .... “ she chews semi thoughtfully on her bottom lip , next thing she is going to say not something she knows in the least. she wants to stay , she enjoyed him being here , and she was even honored he would take the time to speak to her , treating such as forming the consonants and vowels would take the most effort as any other laborious task. she sighs as she affirms what he is telling her , so he knows she understands. “ o--okay. “

in many cases , she believes she has not been genuine about most things. even if she was unable to be anything less than authentic , her emotions and what she felt continued to live deep inside her chest , ready to burst , the pressure unbearable as it remained there. the longer it was , the more and more agony she was in. “ c --- cannot p --- pretend i am okay. “ normally she would never admit this , out loud or to herself , though the trust they had was not measured like any other , and even she did not know why. she did not have the instinct to retreat as he advanced , just stood stock still as she ruminated on her misery and even guilt for concealing a part of herself that could have been the most important. she is not able to return the smile , and she bows her head with a heavy sigh.

“ i --- it …. it f --- feels n --- nice a ---- actually ; to s --- smile. “ she informs him as she leans into his side a bit , brightening up in his presence ; he was a great person , she hopes he knew that. she would tell him if he did not , as many times as she has to.